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I am different

2012-02-02T09:25:00.000-08:00

his exact words to me on the phone. So here is the story girls: I found you on this ad looking for something that is high class. If I think you are hot, I will see you twice a week. Let's make a time for 8:15PM tonight. I'm only 15 mins away from you. But tonight, I'm coming from Santana Row from dinner. I'm ready but he does not show up or call to let me know he is not coming --- Next call, his excuse, the dinner went over. Okay. This is #1 excuse from I am different. Another arrangement in the afternoon but he calls to tell me he has to pick up his daughter from school. Can we make it later at 8:15PM tonight. No show again, no phone call. Next day excuse, my daughter broke her arm. He feels bad. -- O. K. -- Can we make it for in the morning at 8:30AM? -ok- This is the last time for him if he doesn't show up. Since I'm doing my 60 day challenge for Bikram --- I'm in the tolerant, mellow, la la, exhausted mood. GUESS WHAT? ---- he doesn't call me. His excuse --- I had to pic up my kids take them to school. Yesterday, he calls in the afternoon --- can I see you in 15 mins, I'm coming from work. I wait and he calls 1 hour later. I'm not there so he wants to make it for 6:30PM. I hurry back from yoga and he calls telling me he just had botox on my forehead. Can we make it for 7:30PM? Your voice sounds so sexy. I wait till 7:30PM --- he does not call. Now you know Zoe is very wiped out from doing her 60 day yoga challenge to put up with this guys bullshit. YES I AM WIPED OUT! Next time he calls, I will be calm with this MOTHERFUCKER who has no respect for women. This is what I will say to him and I'm sure he will call again. Well, "Mr. I am Different" with you botox forehead treatments. Are you widowed or divorced? In our conversations you told me if I'm really hot you will see me on a regular basis. Well............... since you are such a different CEO ---- you will never find how how HOT --- Miss Zoe Zane is, because you are not coming over here. Not ever. I do believe you hate me or women in general, you keep calling me up and never show up. And you are not different. You are like all the other men who lie, cheat and steal Mr. I am a Different CEO. So take you botoxed forehead and jerk your dick off. If you're divorced, I hope she cheated on you and hurt you bad. You deserve her punishments. Whew! I am done with this "DIFFERENT BOTOXED CEO". What a prima donna, what a vane botoxed man bitch.

I am missing days for Bikram. I think it is Day 29 --- and is today Thursday? Oh brother. I did 2 triangle poses in class last night. The owner was teaching the and I get hyped up when she teaches. She'd high strung and excellent. It's hard. the pressure. I almost choked, feel over after the second triangle from anxiety. I gotta work on this one. OFM!

Day 26

2012-01-31T11:43:00.000-08:00

Day 26 yoga class I was sweating tears from both eyes last night. No crying, just rivers of sweat. I couldn't see the room. I'm sweating like a farm of wild pigs. That's a lot of sweat for a girl like me. I'm drinking enough water. Good job Zoe Girl.
I'm so blessed today. I celebrated life with a very close friend. He left high on life with his heart open. We blessed each other. Thank you Universe.

Day 26 yoga

2012-01-30T17:20:00.001-08:00

The woman who had attitude with me in yoga class was in my face last night after class. When a person says that I am trying, they do not know what Bikram is all about. I'm centered, focused and doing the practice ....... biO-tch. I'm in the middle of 60 days and it is a bitch for me.

I hired a agent who will listen to all business deals. My agent will make sure you are respectful of my time. From now on, send contracts to my iPhone agent.
I will give you the iPhone number in email. You can speak to my agent about business deals on the Net.

Thank you,
Zoe Zane
Her iPhone Agent "V"

Day 25 for Bikram and Free Live Cam Show

2012-01-29T13:08:00.000-08:00

Day 25, yoga room packed passed my ears. I did my class by someone I didn't know nor like. They had a arrogant attitude. Yesterday, was the anniversary party for the studio and free yoga. I don't like the days we have free yoga.

Now - my weekly live cam show is just for members. I'm disappointed in camworldVIP. I went to a lot of work to get on the site, now this. Please don't misunderstand why I'm upset. How will I ever get all my members to watch me at the same time? Will see what other cam girls are doing. CamZ dumped us with no warning. Oh well. I was out of the loop. How can you be out of the loop when the chat cop monitor your shows? Stuff on the net comes and goes. Camz is gone and so are my free live cam shows (need to change it on the entire site - ekk!). When you joined my site you saw other model's shows. That's over. I guess I will not worry about it and focus on money making videos like Sexy Miss Lizz. She told me when she stopped doing free live cam shows it didn't affect traffic.

Buttercup took me to dinner last night for my birthday. My birthday was Friday. I'm deep into my Bikram yoga challenge. I didn't care about my birthday. My close family said hello, happy birthday Mom. That's all that mattered to me.

Lately, everybody out there wants something from Miss Zoe. Right now, I'm hanging in there doing my yoga challenge. Most people don't understand how intense 60 straight days of Bikram yoga can be. So.... I will just let them all say what they want to say, listen with a smile and live my life. I can only fix and do so much. I just felt the pressure from someone who doesn't understand what I went through. That little girl endure a lot and she's very tuff inside. Other people have their own needs and what they want. It only matters what they think. I will let them say what they want to say, let it roll over me like a soft wave.

My book will talk about a little girl's Father's sex abuse (she and her sister). Sister went insane, now in lock down mental hospital. How no one cared, did not give a damn about a pretty little girl. How she took it all on herself and keep going. How she survived is a miracle. She went outside to her favorite trees and ran away. No one was there for her. Now she's deciding who will be close to her. She didn't have a choice when she was small. She took it all on as a tiny girl. This little girl kept her family secret way too long.

When I see selfish, I know it's time for me to love me. That's all that matters, my love for myself.

Celebrate Yourself - You're Your Own Best Friend - Click Thumblogger.Com

2012-01-27T08:19:00.000-08:00

Happy Unbirthday Everyone
If someone missed your birthday have yourself a unbirthday party. Celebrate yourself. On my web site www.zoezane.com I will show you how to have a party with yourself on your unbirthday. woo hooo Why even go down there when someone missed your bithday. Just make yourself happy and it will come to you in different ways. I love to mess with food and wrestle. It's the best fun to trash a birthday cake, smear and throw it --- all over the place. Smear it on yourself, the walls, the ceiling----wherever! Zoe Zane

Day 23 yoga - I moved myself just a tad to the left in the class room last night. The cold air was blowing under the glass door. Oh, I love this. If I ever like the hot room it will be a miracle.

Class last night

2012-01-26T10:01:00.000-08:00

was so freaking hard I wanted to throw up. I laid down during class. I love the teacher, she helped me out correcting some of my poses to make them right. I can handle Miss France. After class I rested outside which I never do. The studio is big a warm. I stay longer and hang our after class. This is good. My muscles are so sore from yoga. Took some aspirin so I could sleep. My laundry is piling up, it's wash day. I kept telling myself in class ---- I need my Mommie! HA HA HA
I might just chill out for a few hours watch the tube to gain strength. Something different is happening in this 60 day challenge. About an hour after class I get energy. WOW! My body it stepping up to powerful me. When you hold yourself like a precious object you get stronger.
Horny Miss Zoe --- I have been looking at eye candy in yoga class at some stud. I can look! YUM YUM YUM

It seems one of my old acquaintance is missing in action. Not sure what happened to her. Either she went to jail or died. I don't talk to her anymore. She was the Lady of Sting, a mean Scorpio type. I dropped the relationship, she said she loved me but threw darts when least expected. I got tired of her hurts. So if something has happened to her she created her own drama. I'm so glad I'm not involved in her negative drama.

There might be some typos or grammer mixed ups since I' so wasted from yoga class. Bear with me everyone.

I always get mixed up on how many days I've done

2012-01-25T08:37:00.000-08:00

during Bikram Yoga Challenge. I'll check how many red stars I've posted. I think, it's Day 21. I have some wonderful, suffering yoga friends. I'll need to soak in Epsom salt today. Still taking my Zija powder, extra emergency C powder, Calcium and B vitamins. I slept last night. I've given it way to much thought, I need to do it, get body wraps. They are amazing what they so for your skin. Body wraps tighten up the skin and make it look youthful. By Sunday, I will have done a body wrap like a Hollywood Movie Star. HA HA HA --- Let you know what it has done to my skin. I'm making a commitment to all of my Net friends. I'm now public with body wraps. Laughing again.

Some special male admirer is sending me chocolates in the mail. How wonderful and delicious this male friend. Thank you Zakk.

When men call me up on the phone with long distant numbers I ask them questions. I like to hear them stumble around on the phone. I do it to see if they are serious about meeting with me. Many long distant numbers are men wanking their sticks just to say hello to Miss Zoe. I just talked to one on the phone and he was taken by surprise. He stumbled --- ah, well, I do not know what airport ---- ah... well.... that..... ah.... --- he hung up. Too funny.

I found some of my first photos in the woods for the Net yesterday. They will be posted on Southern Charms. It's weird how many admires like Southern Charms. They see the photo farm and go crazy. Hum? Oh, well, I like their admiring lusting horny selves for Miss Zoe.

I love the two kitties hugging each other. Sweet pic of fluffy duffy putty cats.

After Vegas two Bikram yoga classes

2012-01-23T13:06:00.001-08:00

Days 17 and 18 Bikram yoga classes - my stripper daughter encouraged me to do doubles on Sunday after Vegas. I did the trip alone this time. You'll see how I trashed out a Vegas hotel room with the help of a male fan that found me at the show. Hey Sexy Miss Lizz, you're the bomb. I trashed Vegas for you baby!!! HA HA HA Did a custom video getting drunk, throwing my glass at the wall. LOL.
I'm getting strong this year in my Bikram yoga class. It's taken 8 long years to see results. Big reason why, the damn boyfriend is gone and not dealing with his shit. He gave me a lot of shit. Whatever, whoever that comes into my life from now on better be positive. I've had it with shit hitting the fan. It's up to me to make sure the right people are in my world.

Back from Las Vegas - my fast trip - Click Yoga Rap Song

2012-01-22T07:43:00.000-08:00

Hard Rock Casino has major history for me. This casino changed the direction of my life. The old boyfriend did all the wood floors in this casino, we didn't get paid. We went to arbitration for what was owed. It took over 7 years to get some of the money back. Why was this job a hard one --- laughing BC hardwood floors were laid at the HARD to get paid casino. HA HA HA --- This casino got me back home to Santa Clara, California. It was not a pretty picture for a long time, no money coming in except phone sex money. I meet this pi-polar female with her alcoholic cowboy boyfriend at a friend's wedding. It was annulled two weeks later. LOL. Dianna wore a black dress to the wedding looking for a roommate to work with her. That's how I got back home to high income Silicon Valley/San Jose/Palo Alto. Zoe in the middle of Google and HP, from eBay to Apple, where Microsoft, Yahoo and Anti-virus software were born. I feel right into the Internet pool that changed our world. Hard Rock Casino pushed me back home. I knew I would get home but not this way. My family was in Cupertino/Santa Clara County. I ran from a angry fighting parents hoping to make my way better. After all these years, I did make it better for myself and NOT with the lieing, cheating, thieving boyfriend. When I pick
bad boys I do it well. OFM! I left Vegas late last night and now home talking to all of you. The guy who was to assist me never showed up. OFM again. He didn't even say he was sorry. Write him off. Something about his water pump and he said I did not need him anyway. YES, I needed you assistance you dumb MTFER. After the old boyfriend dropped off the planet this guy tried to be my boyfriend. Oh no! I got the room, the AVN tickets and no sorry Zoe. WTF Motherfucker! It's over with this one. I will never ask him to assist me every again. One time of ungratefulness is ENOUGH! I have a long time standing admirer this is now in my picture. At least he has some manners. Thank you Zakk. I'm wearing red today - Go 49ers - will watch the game this afternoon. woo hooooo!
I want to thank the Universe for blessing me. Late last night, I had a very nice friend recover some of my loses from the Vegas Trip. New content from Vegas: at the Vegas hotel room, I trashed the room. Look for pictures on my site within the month. I got this guy from AVN to help me with the pics/video and made a dick sucking video. I'm patting myself on my back this morning for being there for myself. Good job Zoe Girl.

Day 14 and 15 bikram yoga

2012-01-20T08:23:00.000-08:00

Hey Sexy Miss Lizz remember when you and I flashed out by this sign in Vegas?
This is our sign --- and we OWN IT!

I have a personal yoga coach encouraging me to push myself in different parts of my practice. Certain poses have slammed me down but not this year. I did another set of triangle last night and the night before. I've been building my body up with "Zija Drink Mix powder" that feed your body and gets ride of inflammation. It's working well with my body. Day 14, I missed my dancer friend in class. Day 15 was hot at the beginning and cooled off at the end. The teacher rolled of the dialogue like a auctioneer. I held back the word sold from my lips. I told the teacher after class how funny it was his fast words. The class laughed at his fast words. Next time he does that I will yell out
....S O L D!!!!!! Ha Ha Ha

Early Saturday morning, I fly off to Las Vegas for 24 hours. It will be a different adventure since I'm going by myself and my male director Mr C. Her she comes the naught school teacher in her fnacy business suit and heels. It will be funny to see how I engage the AVN porn crowd in my picture just like I do at Folsom Street Fair. I feel like I'm on the edge. Maybe I will see some of you at the AVN Porn Convention. Do not hesitate to say hello. I love to meet people I have emailed over and over again. Yeah baby cakes.

Sunday is the 49ers game here in the Bay Area. Everyone is excited about this game. If they win it's off to the Super Bowl. woo Hoooo for the 49ers! When I watch football I get so excited, I scream a lot.

May crazy day on Friday blog

Over to store make sure cats have food when I go to Vegas.
Buttercup was reminded what a thorn can do it a bad boy.
Whip brought in cherry, birch and bamboo from his yard for punishment. He gave me a book called the "The Pearl". No author. This will help me with my book!
Then I worked some MTFers ass real good who just got back from the AVN Porn Convention. Now I know what pimps and stars do during the Porn Convention. LOL.

Do something different Zoe - call your Congressman about SOPA and PIPA

2012-01-19T09:05:00.000-08:00

I got this email today. Please read.Yesterday was nuts, right?

Google launched a petition. Wikipedia voted to shut itself off. Senators' websites went down just from the sheer surge of voters trying to write them. NYC and SF geeks had protests that packed city blocks.

You made history today: nothing like this has ever happened before. Tech companies and users teamed up. Tens of millions of people who make the internet what it is joined together to defend their freedoms. The free network defended itself. Whatever you call it, the bottom line is clear: from today forward, it will be much harder to mess up the internet.

The really crazy part? We might even win.

Approaching Monday's crucial Senate vote there are now 35 Senators publicly opposing PIPA. Last week there were 5. And it just takes just 41 solid "no" votes to permanently stall PIPA (and SOPA) in the Senate. What seemed like miles away a few weeks ago is now within reach.

But don't trust predictions. The forces behind SOPA & PIPA (mostly movie companies) can make small changes to these bills until they know they have the votes to pass. Members of Congress know SOPA & PIPA are unpopular, but they don't understand why--so they're easily duped by superficial changes. The Senate returns next week, and the next few days are critical. Here are two things to think about:

1. Plan on calling your Senator every day next week. Pick up the phone each morning and call your Senators' offices, until they vote "no" on cloture. If your site participated today, consider running a "Call the Senate" link all next week.

2. Tomorrow, drop in at your Senators' district offices. We don't have a cool map widget to show you the offices nearest you (we're too exhausted! any takers?). So do it the old fashioned way: use Google, or the phonebook to find the address, and just walk in, say you oppose PIPA, and urge the Senator to vote "no" on cloture. These drop-in visits make our spectacular online protests more tangible and credible.

That's it for now. Be proud and stay on it!

--Holmes, Tiffiniy, and the whole Fight for the Future team.

___

P.S. Huge credit goes to participants in the 11/16 American Censorship Day protest: Mozilla, 4chan, BoingBoing, Tumblr, TGWTG, and thousands of others. That's what got this ball rolling! Reddit, both the community and the team behind it, you're amazing. And of course, thanks to the Wikimedians whose patient and inexorable pursuit of the right answer brought them to take world-changing action. Thanks to David S, David K, Cory D, and E Stark for bold action at critical times.

P.P.S. If you haven't already, show this video to as many people as you can. It works! http://fightforthefuture.org/pipa/

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Yesterday, I was chatting with one of my enlightened sex worker friends. 911 hurt us all by surprise, sub prime loans took off because we did not say NO to them. Now SOPA and PIPA is here to steal our freedom. Maybe... our voice power will stop this madness to take away our freedom on the Internet. If there is a small elite, rich, wealthy group moving our planet to a one world government who thinks we will be their slaves, think again. They think we're not powerful but their slaves. This is what they hope for. That we do not know our own power letting SOPA/PIPA happen. That collectively, we all THINK helpless and powerless. I think more of us are beginning to see and feel our powerful selves. It's the power we have inside ourselves that will stop SOPA and PIPA. Yesterday that happened. So stand up, call your senator next week. I'm doing just that. I've never call a congressman's office. Never.

I'm going out to the back yard and get myself a brat switch to show those rich elite who is boss! Laughing. Hi Buttercup, see you tomorrow morning.

Stop SOPA and PIPA - read how our GOV wants to take away our freeedom

2012-01-18T09:34:00.000-08:00

Zoe Zane is all about freedom. Read this comment from a friend about SOPA and PIPA.
Unfortunately software alone cannot stop SOPA or PIPA, however there are people who are engineering workarounds for reaching DNS blacked out websites if the legislation goes into effect. There will also be a backlash against the US, but it will be much better to stop this legislation before it is passed. Pressure is already working and some of SOPA and PIPA sponsors are starting to back off, but more pressure is needed.
1 - Wikipedia, Reddit, Mozilla, and many other websites are going to be blacked out for 12 hours beginning at midnight. This will certainly raise the awareness of this effort among people who aren't aware or are sitting on the fence.

http://www.cbsnews.com/8301-501465_162-57360174-501465/wikipedia-moveon-reddit-mozilla-shuts-down-to-protest-sopa-pipa-how-to-prepare/

2 - Learn more about how SOPA/PIPA work and what they would do.

http://americancensorship.org/

http://player.vimeo.com/video/31100268?title=0&byline=0&portrait=0

3 - Find out where your congressional representative stands.

Re: Stop the SOPA before our lives are run by the GOV. This is about who is in the inner circle for wealth. Did you read who is on the list?

Hint - Check the link under "Follow the Money" to find out how much they have received in donations from interested groups.

http://projects.propublica.org/sopa/

4 - If you haven't already done so contact your representative by email or phone to register your opinion. Enter your zipcode to find the contact info for your representatives.

http://www.contactingthecongress.org/

Here are some good tips for calling congress - keep it short and prepare in advance. Refer to the legislation by number (HR3261 = SOPA = House of Representatives, or S968 = PIPA = Senate)

http://www.uua.org/action/advocacytips/26877.shtml

If you write well send an email - here are some tips:

Congressional staffers say the following things are important to making your message influential: including your name, address, and ZIP code so the staff can verify you are a constituent of the Member of Congress, referencing specific legislation rather than a general issue by bill number and title, talking about the impact of the bill on the district or state, and your own reason for supporting or opposing the bill. One well-respected organization recommends being: personalized, short, targeted, and informative.

Will they listen to you? Well probably not so much as an individual, but they will pay attention to the volume of communication on a particular issue, especially from individual constituents as opposed to an organized campaign from an advocacy group like MoveOn. The more they hear from their constituent against this legislation the more they will have to think about their vote.

--aragonz

12 Day for Bikram yoga
Room was very hot, the fans went on full blast. I had a panic attack, almost lost it. I felt like a big air balloon in 60 seconds. Next time that happens, IF it does, I hope not, I will lie down and wait till it passes. I did the triangle pose 2 times again. woo hooo!

Cougar Movie Star - click my freeone messageboard link

2012-01-17T09:06:00.000-08:00

If something interesting comes up in my underground world it is cryptic.
Last night, Day 12 for my yoga challenge. I did two triangle poses again! WOW --- Class room temperature was good. I love the teacher, she is very spunking and has a sexy body like a dancer. My good male yoga friend came back from China. We got caught up on all the yoga gossip. Laughing. I have a wonderful sweet loving yoga girlfriend in class. When it gets hard we squeeze each others hands. We are yoga babies together. It made me cry when she help my hand. I am giving thanks for EVERYTHING I have right now. Thanks you Universe for blessing me with so much abundance.

Some babe I know is not working for over a week. Did she get gailed, oh no!

Sunday Day 11 Bikram Yoga

2012-01-16T09:09:00.000-08:00

This is strange. On one computer I have full access to this forum I post on. On the other computer I'm blocked from the forum. LOL. I've gone through everything I know and still blocked. I need to get one of make geek friends to solve the mystery blocking. Hum. Puzzled. Something about DNS server? Well, I will learn something for sure.
Day 11, Sunday Yoga Class 4:30PM class was cold. State of the art room temperature was low with weather change. It was nice in class. I practiced next to a buff chick (first timer) and feed off her energy. Chicks like that have a lot of self confidence. I was sucking up her self confidence. Little do the know what it takes to do Bikram until they practice. In class I got the message about someone who is trying to ruin my reputation. They have severe low self-esteem. Not to worry Zoe, they will try --- but fail.
Saturday, I sent cross dresser Bonnie's cloths off in the mail. woo Hoooo! I am a Diva of her word this year. Buttercup will enjoy fire in his pants on Friday. Laughing gleefully.

AVN PORN CONVENTION TRIP "Las Vegas Hardrock Casino"
January 21-22, 2012 --- I leave early Saturday morning come back early Sunday. 24 hours in Vegas baby, as the sassy upskirt school teacher in her classy business suit, stockings and heels. I plan to engage with the crowd as their Computer Teacher.

Day 9 and 10 Bikram Yoga

2012-01-14T21:43:00.000-08:00

Day 9, Friday night --- I felt strong in class. Teacher is new, she has pink hair. I love teacher's with pink hair. I love pink hair anything on anyone.
Day 10 Saturday at 4:30PM. I was a swimming pool of sweat tonight. J U I C Y --- Zoe! eeK! I was late and in a different spot in the room. Worked on update for zoezane.com --- it made me late to class. Still had to finish update and it's done. Uploading pee video for clips4sale with pee pic tomorrow.

Day 7 & 8 for yoga

2012-01-13T09:44:00.000-08:00

Day 7, Wednesday night, in the back row near door, teacher was owner Michele. The room was perfect for heat, humidity, and air flow --- nice class. Michele was most attentive of my practice - I felt her strong support. Many of the teachers have great respect for me. I'm so blessed. T H E N ----- I go home and can't sleep. WTF. Muscles are sore. On Thursday, I was zombie girl all day long. Edited pics for Southern Charms, update is on Monday.
Planning a photos shoot in the wilds of San Jose, end of January for Buttercup and other fetish freaks.

Last night, Day 8 was different, sweat like a pig in class. I finally have my hydration up. That's so important when you do Bikram. Drink your water, tea, coconut water - do it Zoe! I love all my great friends that suffer with me during the 60 day challenge. 150 people have signed up for the challenge. WOW!
It's great to be able to walk around in the new huge, spacey, giant Bikram studio.
I love it.

Update for zoezane.com is hardcore Vegas Sex with another MILF at hotel party room. I think I will post one of my bad school teacher pee videos for members. Some final details to set in place by the technical department for live cam show (I'll accept any savvy help from people I can trust). I miss doing the weekly show and all the cam viewers. The cam viewers get creative crazy with me. Great fun.

Kinda weird when you know someone and they show up to the yoga studio. I wonder if they remember what we did together. I was freaking out until I talked about the eoncounter with Cashmier Mob Princess. They have more to lose than me. I'm good at keeping secrets. Your Zoe Girl has the most interesting life. A life, I never dreamt would have so many secrets to keep.

Something new in my life, I have a cute, submissive female named "Miss Precious". AND ----- two Fem Dom girlfriends that will put slaves in their place with me. Right now, I have a submissive male I'm training to be my pink pantyhose girl, her name is Bonnie. Diva and Bonnie, just like Diva and Buttercup. I have a lot of "B" in my Fem Dom Realm. HA HA HA

Day 7 for Bikram and Trust

2012-01-11T12:23:00.000-08:00

I've got this file in my brain....when I start 60 straight days of Bikram Yoga something happens to me. Last year I practiced by a spunky 20something year old who now runs a studio in California. I connected with her energy but not her body. I hurt my back pushing myself to far. I got through it, finished the challenge. Patience Zoe, patience. That is my lesson on that one. This year I got a head cold --- it's almost gone. WTF. Over the weekend I was a limp gumby girl. The pressure of the 10 ffstocking videos was wearing on me. I'm still worry I didn't get it right. If not --- I forget the whole damn project. Zoe the webmaster, it sucks sometimes. Women who have husbands doing the techie stuff are so blessed. Treat your guys nice and spoil them. It's hard to be the star, the model, the promoter, the writer and the techie girl. I need a nap. Must send off the HD video memory cards to the stocking/girdle webmaster. I loath High Definition for these reasons: takes up to much bandwidth, need a hyped up computer with at lease a terabyte, new software to edit the darn video (must be converted to new format for clips4sale). All in the name of making it High Definition, keeping up with Sony Baloney.
In February, I might go to Santa Monica, Claifornia for a love money retreat with Natalie Pace. If I go to her retreat, I'll miss 3 days of my Bikram challenge. This means I must do 3 days of double classes. Oh my my my. What are you doing Zoe? Not sure right now. I'm getting a call from my higher guides to go with Natalie Pace. I have a big job that needs love money training from the Goddess. More than every before there is a call for people you can trust on this planet.
Smart Trust: Creating Prosperity, Energy, and Joy in a Low-Trust
World by Stephen M. R. Covey, author of the New York Times bestseller The Speed
of Trust and his long time business partner, Greg Link Trust has become the new currency in today’s networked world — the critical competency for individuals, teams, organizations and even countries.

Bikram Yoga Blog - 60 day challenge - click here for ffstockings

2012-01-09T09:09:00.000-08:00

Picture of Lady GaGa in spiked heels doing private Bikram yoga class.
O M G over and over again OMG OMG OMG! ! !

4:30 PM class big, huge new studio - I started on Friday, Jan 6 - Robin, owner of San Mateo studio was the teacher. She is awesome!!! I connected with everything she said - be centered, be calm, stay focused (I finished the 10 HD videos as the up skirt whore story lady in nylons and girdles for Canada webmaster http://www.ffstockings.com - whew, a lot of work just getting dressed for each HD video - so glad that project is over - this HD video is nerve racking). Yoga class was packed again. New studio is 7000 sq feet. Need to find the garbage can. LOL.

Saturday, Jan 7 is the offical first day for the challenge, but I started yesterday. I'm in the back by the pillar of light post. 4:30PM class was packed again. Oh no! Must get to class early to get the spot I want. So far so good. Teacher was incrediable Jennifer, owner of Morgan Hill studio. More than a year ago, I did 60 day challenge next to Jennifer. She has incrediable energy. She did the challenge in 30 days, 2 classes per day. WOW! She's a young studio owner from New York/Wall Street. I remember how it was being next to her in that class. After class she found me, huged me twice --- you are so sweet Zoe. What a big surprise, such a kind gift for words. It made me cry. Lately, lots of great people are saying hello to me, speaking nice words of kindness. I have a warm heart right now.

Sunday, Jan 8 did two classes called doubles After the 10AM class I felt great, decided to do another class at 4:30PM. I talked with my stripper daughter about doing 2 classes in one day. We decided I have the energy right now. The teacher in the morning class was young went on and on, she went over. I had to leave right at 11:30AM to make an up skirt fetish appointment with friend. Teachers need to start and end on time. When the class is packed it can be a problem moving everyone to 5 rows. Doing doubles is arduous. I'm not ready to be a Bikram yoga teacher. I don't want to be a teacher in the heat all the time. Damn sweaty job. HA HA HA --- In the second class I had to stay in the dead pose a lot. I did all of the poses at least once. I'll be in Las Vegas Saturday, January 21 for AVN Porn Convention as the upskirt school teacher in nylons. Will be a fast 24 hour trip to Vegas baby with director Mr C. will assisting me with pics and video.
I feel pretty good this morning for doing two classes yesterday. Hum. I must be getting stronger. I'm so proud of myself. Giving myself a big huge being my own best friend.

My flob cake blog continued

2012-01-06T07:54:00.000-08:00

My cake creation took 6 month and a crumbling mess. Oh well. I feared the sparklers would start a fire. I've had three big major fires in my life. I'm done with THAT kinda fire. I poured liquor on the cake and envisioned a fire blasting cake. That didn't work. I'm known to do it over and over again until it's done right. That's for the future, set another crazy cake on fire and watch it burn up and away. wooHooo --- I had left over canned whipping cream which flopped out of the can too. Bummer. Get your cans fresh and they'll make you happy when they blast cream. It was a flopping disappointment when I made the cake movie. Over all it was a flop but who cares. Too much fear flops everything. My advise for setting cakes on fire: do it right away. Use your smarts and intellect not to set your house on fire. Laughing. This is my recipe for flopping cakes on fire by Inzane Production director Miss Zoe Zane and the Monster Cat Crew. I did the video with the cats around. We all make it safely through the day. Rated: A Big Flop! HA HA HA

Offers for Zoe in the underworld

2012-01-05T07:12:00.000-08:00

Two nights ago editing pics for SC, some admiring Texan calls me up. He's never been married wanting exclusive rights to Zoe. I listen to his life story about his dieing family member. Watching someone you love leave their skin suit can be difficult. This lonely person has lots of abundance and needs a nice lady to treat him right. This arrangement got my attention. It might be his fantasy and nothing more. But Miss Zoe likes the offer.
Last night I got another marriage proposal. He wants a Vegas marriage with me and my sexy hot, new girlfriend. I've known him for over five years. Last double encounter with him, the other woman tried to make him marry her. Stupid bitch, bad move baby. Now I'm finding he wants me? LOL. Interesting development. Hum. Vegas marriage, him and two women, I think that's polygamy Mr. Lick. If I marry her and then he marries me is that polygamy? Now I'm a polygamist. Too funny, since I was raised in the Mormon Church. Laughing till I pee. We could fake a Vegas marriage with wild friends/no relatives. That would be fun. Bring on the big diamond rings we will wear on our toes. HA HA HA --- When you are horny hot you will say and do anything. But..... I'm getting the message from him and how he feels for Miss Zoe. It's very good.
Yesterday morning on the phone, this is the most interesting offer. Another call from a clergy man who needs my attention. Since I was once married to a Mormon seminary teacher and a Bishop's wife, he thought I would understand the social pressures being a clergy man. I do. It was hard putting on the religious, perfect hat. It's unfair and not real what people think you should be for them. Today, I would ham it up and be all in their face about the Glories of the Kingdom. I would fake my "Self Righteous Highness Act" and bull shit everyone. Then dress up like a whore at night roam the bars and have fun. Loudly laughing --- ...!@#-$%^&....! When my Mormon Bishop husband was released from his calling the next Bishop's wife knew how to play it. She was Almighty in her Glory and made everyone think it too. LOL. Forgive them for they no not what they do. Her husband ran away with a underage girl. They brought him back home for counseling. Today they are still together. Oh fuck them over and the the church's image.
Today will be interesting. I will let you know in my next blog. I still need to talk about my cake flop. That will be continued and included in the next blog.
Big smiles.
Picture posted is Giantess Zoilla crushing a huge airplane. The feet are my feet. It didn't hurt when I smashed the big airplane.

My cake flop - my New Year Cake Wreck 2012

2012-01-02T11:12:00.000-08:00

I'm editing the NYCW movie right now. I took pics of my crazy New Year's Cake. I've had this cake in my fridge since July 2011. Why, so long Zoe? I wanted to set the cake on fire and put sparklers on it. I was afraid it would cause a big fire with the sparklers. I put it off until New Year's Eve Day. LOL. It went smooth. No fire. Sparklers smell up your house. I didn't let my party friends eat any of the cake. Good girl, Zoe. Laughing. A cake in the fridge for 6 month is pretty dried out. I'm glad the cake is out of the fridge and down the garage disposal. WHEW --- to be continued

Next year a writing fool - book will be finished

2011-12-31T14:19:00.000-08:00

New Year Glitter Graphics

Scraps, Images - GoodLightscraps.com
I'm joining up with Kashmir Mob Princess for the completion of the book. She has a sassy attitude with my bitch attitude when it comes to writing. She's Jewish. I have many Jewish friends.

Miss Zoe was accused of being mean the other day. What a cry baby. That cry baby caused the damage, not me. I was not supporting the cry babies' crap. The cry baby is trying to wipe me out. The cry baby failed. Little does the cry baby know how tuff I am!!! Tried to put it back on me. Best thing for me to do is not respond back. The cry baby likes to get me in the fight. It's not my fight but your fight cry baby.

Today, I started my New Year celebration with my banker. I gave him a bottle of champagne. This year I will direct myself to high positive energy, and run like hell from anything that keeps me down. Nothing is standing in my way, here I come world. woo Hooo!

Days fly when buzy - continued hate the fruit cake blog

2011-12-29T09:38:00.000-08:00

My two daughters made a big deal over my ex's fruit cake - the cake they hate. Everyone grabbed their favorite dessert but not the fruit cake. So my stripper daughter cut herself a big chunk of the colon clogging fruit cake. She took a very sharp knife to cut the hate cake. Over and over, she cut thin slices. Now the cake is cut into a 25 tiny tin slices. Then she cut it crosswise, over and over. She got up from the table, walked outside, threw it in the snow for the birds to eat. She went back inside got herself a nice dessert and smiled. My baby daughter cut herself a huge piece of "I hate fruit cake". She placed tons of whipping cream on top of it. She walked to the laundry room left the cake on the floor for the cat to eat. The cat licked off the whipping cream and left the soggy fruit cake on the paper plate. One of my grand kids saw what my stripper daughter did to the fruit cake. The grand kids hate fruit cake. The oldest boy took the remaining cake out to the garage. He took a hammer and slammed the soggy cake. Then, kicked it to the wall and laughed. WOW! The fruit cake is killed. My ex saw what they did to his fruit cake. He asked them why they did not eat the killed cake. They started to laugh eating their favorite dessert. "We hate fruit cake Dad!" He said, "Oh?" My ex has no emotion about anything since he is closet gay and can't admit his is gay. The gay community would not have anything to do with an old fart like my ex. If he admitted he was gay where would he go. The Mormon Church would not accept him and neither would the Utah gay community. So he swims in his lie and buys fruit cake that everyone hates. Laughing gleefully ---- HA HA HA ---- Zoe Zane

I hate Christmas fruit cake blog

2011-12-25T12:46:00.000-08:00

Got this call from my stripper daughter and baby daughter, how their father, my ex, went to the store for a family Christmas dessert. My ex bought a Christmas fruit cake that no one likes! Tonight, the girls will mocked the cake at my ER doctor's house. His house is not the traditional, poor Mormon Utah family house. My ex, a misogynist, he hates women. My two daughters are feeling his hate for women on Christmas Day. He got up early yesterday morning to see if the girls wanted to go to breakfast with him. He walked into their rooms saw they were sacked out. He didn't ask them out for breakfast(he's a tight wade, only spends $$$ on his guns and gun club). He later on told the girls he went by himself to breakfast. He has a cheesy, old red truck, drives way slow. He asked the girls IF they want to go down with him to dinner. My baby daughter told him, no way. I will drive down with my big sister. He made sure his Christmas dessert would be hated by all. He bought what he wanted for dessert. He doesn't care about anyone but himself. The girls will make sure they make a HUGE spectacle over the fruit cake. It's a traditional fruit cake with dried candied fruit, red and white raisins, dates and nuts. I h a t e raisins. My Mom made these raisin cookies, I picked out the raisins, threw them over the couch. Cooked raisins make my shutter, I want to throw up. I will let you know what happens over the butt plugging Christmas fruit cake in Utah.
My version of Christmas fruit cake is this: gingerbread cake with a touch of Disaronno, Italian Ligueur - Amaretto, gum drops, M&Ms, maraschino cherries and nuts. I know the kids would love Mom's tainted version of let's have some fun Chritmas cake.

History of Fruit CakeThe history of fruit cake can be traced, by most accounts, to the ancient Romans.

In the early 18th century, fruit cake, then known as plum cake, was outlawed in Europe for being sinfully rich. From 1837 to the turn of the century, fruit cake was very popular in England and always had a place on the high tea table.

In the United States, fruit cakes are popular items to send soldiers, and in 2006, Americans mailed 2,952 pounds of fruit cake to soldiers stationed in Iraq, according to the Christian Science Monitor.

Types of Fruit Cake
The basic ingredients for fruit cake are flour, s?ugar, eggs, alcohol such as rum, nuts and candied or dried fruit. Also, recipes may include additional spices and ingredients typically found in cakes, such as vanilla extract, cinnamon, nutmeg, citrus peel, almond extract, allspice and cloves.

SOPA legislation - is there more than meets the reading

2011-12-25T12:44:00.000-08:00

The Stop Online Piracy Act (SOPA), also known as H.R. 3261, is a bill that was introduced in the United States House of Representatives on October 26, 2011, by Representative Lamar Smith (R-TX) and a bipartisan group of 12 initial co-sponsors. The bill expands the ability of U.S. law enforcement and copyright holders to fight online trafficking in copyrighted intellectual property and counterfeit goods.[2] Now before the House Judiciary Committee, it builds on the similar PRO-IP Act of 2008 and the corresponding Senate bill, the Protect IP Act.[3]

The originally proposed bill would allow the U.S. Department of Justice, as well as copyright holders, to seek court orders against websites accused of enabling or facilitating copyright infringement. Depending on who requests the court orders, the actions could include barring online advertising networks and payment facilitators such as PayPal from doing business with the allegedly infringing website, barring search engines from linking to such sites, and requiring Internet service providers to block access to such sites. The bill would make unauthorized streaming of copyrighted content a crime, with a maximum penalty of five years in prison for 10 pieces of music or movies within six months. The bill also gives immunity to Internet services that voluntarily take action against websites dedicated to infringement, while making liable for damages any copyright holder who knowingly misrepresents that a website is dedicated to infringement.[4]

Proponents of the bill say it protects the intellectual property market and corresponding industry, jobs and revenue, and is necessary to bolster enforcement of copyright laws especially against foreign websites.[5] Opponents say that it infringes on First Amendment rights, is Internet censorship,[6] will cripple the Internet,[7] and will threaten whistle-blowing and other free speech.[8]

The House Judiciary Committee held hearings on SOPA on November 16 and December 15, 2011. The Committee is scheduled to continue debate when Congress returns from its winter recess.[9]

Take camera home to film the cats on XMAS Day

2011-12-24T15:27:00.000-08:00

My 3 male cats are so funny. Everyone needs to see the crazy fun stuff they do living with Miss Zoe. I grabbed the camera for video fun on Christmas Day in San Jose.

At night I will Apple on iChat with the grand kids in Utah.

Early today, I walked through Valley Fair Mall, not crowded. I'm a ground hog for porn with all my sites. I had to get out and finish up last minute shopping.

I did something very kinky just a few minutes ago with BMW. wooHoooo

Merry Christmas everyone. Love to all my close friends who are there for me no matter what happens. You know who you are.

Video this week - 2 MILFS give NY black dick a foot job together. WOW!

On Friday - Southern Charms

2011-12-20T08:35:00.000-08:00

Hi Buttercup. Diva is going making you break your rules. Bad Diva! Jump in your car, drive to your special "Net View" location. Now lust over your Diva's shorts and switch pics. I've posted some special pics just for you in my yellow shirt and short shorts. It's yours, the switch I have in my hand. Bring to me, here's this list: Ivory Soap regular size, chocolate cake with lots of frosting and German Chocolate Cake with Coconut topping. YUMMY! You know when and where, the date, the time. Make sure you bring me a fresh lime tree switch from your morning walk. I'm thinking, we could do a drive by near the Wild Forest in San Jose. (maybe in January in the morning). I'll jump out, pose fast, take off laughing. I spoke with my movie director/movie critic. He knows about the unkept wild tree location. He made the comment that Clint Eastwood thinks San Jose is a low life city because of the wooded area. I told him about the Hart Murder Movie. You know your Diva likes a good murder movie. Diva adores evil Jessica Lang in American Horror Story. Diva has been searching in vintage shops for clothes similar to Jessica Lang's wardrobe on AHS. Her Xmas Surprise Video, the clothing is vintage. Lic Lic Lic

Yesterday, a 1950's nylon admirer worshipped Diva's legs. He was begging Diva to pose in vintage clothing for his site. He is one of many photographers who longs to take photos of Diva's vintage.

Zoe Zane

Sunday - video photo shoot with new director

2011-12-19T08:16:00.000-08:00

I'm finally finishing up projects before Xmas. One short video, smoking naked, I muted the sound and added royal free music. Now to upload my Holiday Surprise video for this weeks update. No sound. WTF. It freaked me out, my camera is broken? ---I tweaked windows movie maker over and over, still no sound. My daughter called and asked me, first question from IT, do you have the speakers turned on? I checked. speakers turned off. LOL. That's the problem, I shut down WMM, then opened it up again. Silly me. Clicked on the video, I have sound! WHEW. This happened just before my yoga class. I'll get the short surprise video up today. woo hoooo

My new film director gave me free movie for a Xmas present. The movie "WARRIOR" is pretty good. Great story line. My new film director is a movie critic.

Today I'll get a phone call from some very important people. I'm looking out for the founder of a huge project. This project will change the world. I'm so thankful to be apart of a noble cause to help sex workers.

Let all three cats outside this morning for some fresh air. Let's go boys.
My favorite drink for the holiday is Asti Martini & Ross Champagne.

Zoe Zane

Drive safe out there before Xmas - it is crazy ---- !@#$%^&....999<<<@...#$%^&!!!

Friday - 5 nylon videos

2011-12-17T12:07:00.000-08:00

I'm tired this morning, jumped into the bath tub and relaxed on my slant board. I took a 15 min nap, feel better! Yesterday, I dressed up and undressed sooooo many times my head was spinning. Still have 4 more videos to do for ffstockings.com

Working on zoezane.com update right now. Then, I did my wonderful session for BONDASSAGE. He told me he liked the surprise, what I might do to him when blindfolded. He was very happy and gifted Miss Zoe more. woo hooo! I love BONDASSAGE. I can bring in the Goddess energy, lift myself and him too. Holiday Update --- Look for it on Sunday - I'll be in my cute maid antler's attire. Furry loves and HO HO HO to the World. Sexy Miss Lizz took the pics in our "Lust in Livermore" adventure last Saturday.

This morning, my 3 cats snuggled up to me in bed under the covers. Peanut first, his cheek up to mine, them 20 pound Buddy dumped himself on top of Peanut. Peanut did not care. He is so funny. Smashed by his brother and sleeping away. Finally Chubs arrived and curled up down by my belly button. That is over 50 pounds of purring kitty loves for me. WOW!

Click link 1952 North Star Fridge called "Buttercup"

2011-12-14T13:58:00.000-08:00

Buttercup. I want to show you the yellow fridge called "Buttercup". In my kitchen you will have the rare privilege of standing in front of it with your pants down. Look up high, do you see the lime tree switch on top of the cupboard knobs? That switch is just for you, unruly Buttercup. At any given time, your Diva can grab it, make you dance as she smacks your bottom to bright red. Next time, nose to the corner, place your finger tips on your shoulders prancing on and on and on. Pick up your feet and perform for my lady friends, right quick. We're laughing with glee knowing that all of us can hold you down in the backyard. Let's whip him with the switch he cut for himself. We'll force Buttercup to the ground, take it now, wisp wisp wisp. Big, huge smiles from Diva's lady friends. You deserve it. All my lady friends will watch you swat like a dog. Now --- put your face in the grass. Do it, Buttercup. Then Diva will hose you off and watch your dingle berries blast off into space. Oh what fun, let's take Buttercup to the bathroom, give him a "Ivory Soap Enema" from the red bag nailed to the wall. Your Diva loves to watch your face crunch up with pain. Buttercup is helpless in the bathroom, unruly no more! LAUGHING LAUGHING LAUGHING ...#$%^&@---$%^&*(...!
Fetish Diva Diamond aka Mistress Miss Zoe --- I love you Buttercup. You have a Nothstar 1952's fridge named after you. That's so spee-cal.

Crazy Driver, my lips are blue yeah -- eeK!

2011-12-13T09:59:00.000-08:00

Saturday: Lust in Livermore with Sexy Miss Lizz in a hotel room was fantastic as always. We were really funny bad, crazy wild. She and I pissed all over the place. When I tell fetish friends they laugh at what we did. I was the school teacher who peed on the desk, ironing board and bed. Lizz peed on the mirror, the curtains, the bed, and outside in the hallway which was very daring. We made sure there were no security cameras on the ceiling. We went out for a smoking fetish video by a liquor store. I flashed my pussy at some guy. He was hanging around till we drove off. The fetish for golden showers is well loved by my slaves. Very soon on clisp4sale, my pee pee videos.

Sunday: Drove to Monterey to dominate female sub Justin with master Jo Jo Max. It was awesome how we all clicked. They're in love with me, Fetish Diva Diamond.
Oh, I got lost driving from Livermore to home, drove into Tracy. OFM! In Monterey, I got lost again, drove past the airport and made it to the hotel room. WHEW!
I'm not one to drive so far. The devil is making me do naughty in far places. Big smiles. Miss Zoe has been a driving fool. Last night I went to yoga class to rid myself of tension --- ahhhh....

Yesterday day, Monday I was off the wall busy with fetish slaves.

Mercury in retrograde it moving past all of us now. Make sure when you sign contracts, everything is clear OR just wait till Mercury is back home. That will be on December 15.

I'm doing good this morning talking with my best friend in Ohio. My Cashmier Mob Princess has my back. She is a true blue friend forever. Friends I dumped this year tried to hon in on my established circle of great friends. They did not succeed. Know, I know who my real friends are. I love you Lizz. Merry Holidays everyone. It's Tuesday in San Jose.

High Definition VIDEO BABY - Sexy Miss Lizz Website

2011-12-08T17:21:00.000-08:00

I have a hard time making changes. It means I have to learn how to do something new. I get nervous when I don't know how to make teckie stuff work. Baking a cake or cookies, no big deal. Doing the teck-thang ---- is a big deal. I'll keep plodding along till I get it right. High definition video needs different different editing software like Adobe Premier. I just took in a big breath and blew it out. It makes me want to eat cookies and chocolate when I face the learning curve for HD video. This is what I get when I do it on my own and not go to school. Oh Zoe, cowboy up and do it.

Over the weekend Sexy Miss Lizz and I will be having fun together. She is dependable and a great friend. Here is a pic of us doing our wild thang at AVN Porn Convention 2011. We turned a lot of heads like Nina Hartley, Ron Jeremy, Deauxma and her agressive, competitive husband. I wish Larry would just get it, lets do porn together! It will not happen, I can wish, Larry will have to swallow his ego. Airforce jocks like Larry don't swallow their egos, so forget it Zoe. I know the fans on the world wide web would go crazy if Sexy Miss Lizz, Deauxma and Zoe Zane were doing hot housewife HD Video. We R mature, hot 4 sure.

Last night I watch American Horror Story. Jessica Lang has the police jumping to put her in prison. She just smiles and twinkles around them. She knows that it won't happen. Violet is dead, she just found out. The Rubber Man boyfriend didn't save her life. Violet's pregnant Mom was raped by Rubber Man. She's carrying twins, one is her husbands, the other twin was conceived by Rubber Man. It's a very dark series and I love it.

I am back - up on eros-guide

2011-12-07T19:41:00.000-08:00

In 2008, I sadly left eros-guide. But today, I get this email and they want me back. I was the first mature woman on eros-guide to post mature. I will be the bold and post that I'm over 60. In the mature section women under 40 posted. They do it so they can be noticed. The men want women who are over 40. It ruffled my feathers a long time ago but I don't care now. I know what men are seeking.

I have been talking to a foot fetish webmaster on clips4sale. Soon you will see my feet in High Definition. We are working about the details so we both win.

Someone female I had a close encounter with is trying to sabatoge me. It's not working.

This weekend, I'll be up in Livermore doing video and photos with my best friend Sexy Miss Lizz. We are calling it --- Lust in Livermore! HA HA HA

New, long lasting friendship - click here Bondassage

2011-12-03T08:42:00.000-08:00

Yesterday afternoon, Miss Jaeleen Bennis and myself meet for tea at Los Gatos Starucks. It's rare to find a good friend in this industry, a honest sex worker. Well, two of them where sitting together at Starbucks. We get in trouble for our
honesty. I think we need a business coach that teaches us to lie. We chatted
about our lives, business and Bondassage. Many pro dommes are jealous of Bondassage. She trademarked the name, very difficult to do. Instead of being jealous and slamming her, they need to be jumping up and down with joy. Miss Jaeleen did something positive for the industry. Most SWs don't get it, how they need to treat their work like a business. If you want success, you must model success. Instead of jealous cat fights, stupid childish behavior, girls stealing clients (oh please) and dumping you off a message boards(insecure SX reveals her unprofessional behavior in a double, then dumps her co-mod). Clients will have more respect for discreet sex workers. Get educated, get knowledge, get powered! How can you talk bad about a successful business model that works. Instead of being so damn insecure, fix the broken part of yourself, create a great business. The IRS just wants your money and the community doesn't want to know what you do as a SW. Be discreet. There are many sex workers who want it legal. I wonder what legal looks like if the government gets it's say so. If it's anything like what we have now --- OFM! A bunch of crooks running a bunch of reformed tax paying sex workers? LOL. I think, it will be still be sleazy, the underground, and rules broken. Something that's been illegal for so long will try to be illegal. You need the good guy and the bad guy in any movie. If legal, violent crimes against women can be reported, kick his ass to jail. Only if the sex workers has the balls to kick his ass to jail. There are battered wives right now, this very moment who are taking the horrible abuse from the abusive, hateful husbands. Their marriage is legal, their Church knows what he's doing. But the wife has been beaten down so much she ONLY talks about divorcing him. She continues to take the abuse. S o o o o o . . . there you have it. Low self esteem wins. The abuse still goes on. You have your honest, high level service providers and your cheaters that ripe you off. It's the human factor in the sex equation. It's the drama of the underworld of sex.

Studio is clean and organized - yipeee!

2011-12-02T10:18:00.000-08:00

I usually blog more but this studio stuff is very time consuming. I'm down to the last of it. I didn't find the USB Cable for my HD Camera. I ordered on a cable on line. A close male friend found the first recorded vintage upskirt school teacher video on the memory card. I DID IT! He will help me with video in the future. I have another male confidant who is a writer/movie critic. He will help me with photos and video too. I'm hand picking the right people to further my porn life. I'm so blessed.

Yesterday, I was at my bank correcting an important account. The male banker was curious about my Inzane Productions, how I got the name. He wanted to know my porn name, I didn't tell him. I want it to be just business with my bankers and advisers. At least for now. When my book is published they will know who I am. I have another publisher that is very interested in my book.

With work, writing, cleaning the studio for Bondassage, updates, yoga class, there isn't much time to sleep. Sorry Buttercup. I'm swamped with a movie project for Canada, Southern Charms, clips4sale videos, all my sites and the Monster Cat Crew.
W H E W!

Sunday on my live cam show, I will have 70's male porn star, Will. My lovely Will will help me on the show. He's a professional writer too.

Today Miss Jaeleen Bennis and I will have tea at Starbucks this afternoon. I love her!

Throwing out the old, get my whip out - The Happy Domme

2011-11-29T09:09:00.000-08:00

The studio is in a uproar as of last night. Miss Zoe is hunting for USB cable to HD Handyman Sony Camera, bummer, not found. I did it again, I accidentally threw it away. I made a HUGE effort to keep it all together. Oh well, I'm a throwing, crazy woman again. eek! I threw more out, tear, break, snap it and over the fence. HA HA HA! Those things made me very unhappy. More will come back to me. That's how it works. Get ride of the old for the new.

Early this morning, I had a dream, a male movie star was kissing me. We both understood each other and how the game is played. When like minds join that's what happens. He's tall, very very funny, my mystery man. I'm happy this morning.

THE HAPPY DOMME STORY:
Ohhhhhhhhhhh....... I called my slave "WHIP" up yesterday cause I was livid "LIVID" out there. He'll call this morning to get a huge spanking session from the tree switches I cut off birch tree. I'm hungry to whip "WHIP", give it to him. After I'm finished with him, I'll put him in the corner, nose to the wall laughing. Look at his red bottom with a big fat, huge gigantic smile. Sifffer slave suffer, I know you want it bad from me.

Zoe Zane aka Fetish Diva Diamond(she keeps spankings men who are unrulely)

Last night on Apple

2011-11-27T08:05:00.000-08:00

my family and I messed around with the video applications. You look stretched, bent, bulging, green, negative black and white - it's crazy fun with the family. I like to stretch my head and hair in silly ways. We were all laughing. My grand kids adore me and I love them so much. The oldest boy told his Mom that he already missed me as I drove off in the car to the airport last weekend.

Live cam show is Sunday morning 9AM PST. I gotta get over there and iron my school teacher outfit for the show. It's show time baby. Let you know what my students come up with in the show. It can get pretty wild in the show with the cam viewers comments. This morning San Jose has fog. I love fog. bye bye for now

Live cam show was all about the teacher's apple in her cunt. If you bring an apple to this teacher, Miss Zoe, she will smear her cunt juices all over it and lick it off in front of you. The dentention school teacher likes to gang bang all the bad boys in her class on the floor.

After the Holiday

2011-11-26T08:11:00.001-08:00

I've performed my live cam show for over 5 years. I'm burned out on the same show time. I moved the show to Sunday at 9AM PST. I need Saturday off for now. How long, I don't know. I just need a break from the routine. I've been working my ass off all year long. It feel nice to be OFF this morning. I created my own vacation from porn. Laughing.

I'm feeling pretty good this morning. Today, I'll post my zoezane.com update.

My trip to Carmel was wonderful until I had my second, girlie drink. My drink was heavy with expensive vodka, people in Carmel must be alcoholics. Grrr. The bar boozed up my drink. I didn't like it, so it was changed. Drink was still hardcore for Diva Miss Zoe. The drive home, I wanted to throw up but didn't. I'm a pretty tuff girl for having seven kids. That's not half of what I've been threw. I thought to myself in the awful throws of throw up, a Diva doesn't do that, throw up, so I didn't. Quit frankly, I wasn't being me. If me, I would of thrown up on the side of the road. At other dinners, I've had two drinks that weren't as strong. Along time ago when pregnant in Utah, I was embarrassed to throw up, I repressed it. It came up, I swallowed it back down. eeK! My driver. a booze expert, felt responsible for not watching out for me and the two demon drinks. He needs to be on his toes for his Diva. He knew it was a very, heavy drink. My mind was thinking, why did he not catch what was happening to his Diva? Maybe he was all caught up in his wonderful Diva. It's important to look after your Diva. She's the light of your life. You can make up for it, be a generous gentlemen, do it quickly, dance and prance on the tips of you toes, call her.

Another subject: I read the tabloid magazine article about Demi Moore and Ashton. Boy, she's all into herself. Is this the way Demi will put herself back into the Hollywood game? I think Demi is making a terrible mistake getting so thin. Did she do that to make Ashton feel for her? Honestly, I know the game about getting attention. In college, I was anorexic to get my Dad's love and affection. It's a horrible place to be to get someones love. You would never think Demi is insecure.
I'm shocked, Demi. I guess it will all work out. Hum? I know certain things can make a girl feel insecure. Are you doing that one Demi? If it gets her out there, go for it. I think she's beautiful, for God's sake, Demi, eat some food. Your fan's will like you more. We don't like seeing Demi Moore, skinned and boned, a woman who looks like she walked out of a Jewish Nazi Camp in designer clothes.

Zoe Zane

Sweet Smiling Horror of Utah

2011-11-22T08:37:00.001-08:00

I'm waking up, my three cats sleeping close. I think their soft tails, furry purrs channel in truth to my mind. My bed covers are charged with honesty. My family trip to the sweet warm horror state(Utah)was better this time. My therapist and I must be doing something good. My baby daughter was laughing at my funny jokes. Just the idea of moving out from her useless Father gives her hope. Their Father is a lazy slob who loves his chickens and scriptures more than his kids. I destroyed his bubble when I divorced him. He wanted to be an apostle for the Mormon church. OFTC - oh fuck the church! An apostle that never cleans out his toilet? WTF

Now for the horror of Utah. I learned from a close source, the abuse is still going on. Rumor or not, in the Mormon temple, symbolic sacred rituals are performed, passage to heaven. I still have respect for the spirit of the Temple. I learned that old men are molesting younger men threw the temple curtains. It makes sense. I know men who are deprived, they do weird, freaky sex. No one talks about this one at all. My mind this morning saw how the Mormon church was founded on polygamy and the taboo subject, incest. How old farts were marrying girls under 18. The Church covers up all of this with their sweet warm smiles. The word of wisdom, not drinking and smoking, not swearing, the beauty of the Mormon people, covers up the abuse. I was a sinful woman to have a boyfriend come live with me, called to a church court to be excommunicated(or asked to repent of my fallen ways). But, my X-husband abused his children and me, his wife, no one cared. I didn't go to the humiliating Church court. I wasn't banned from the Church. I banned myself and ran far away. I think my name is still on the membership roles. I'm still a member of the sweet warm horror, the Mormon church. HA HA HA

Zoe Zane

P.S. Credit given to slave Buttercup, he saw the truth about Utah, calling it sweet warm horror.

Monday home from Cali-tah - link to Ron L Molen

2011-11-21T14:49:00.000-08:00

I hate Utah. At one time, it was my salvation to heaven. Utah is sick sweet horror
for me. That will be in the book, the sick sweet horror story. It was freaking freezing 37 degrees with snow on the ground. Makes you want to stay inside, be a big bowl of mash potatoes smothered with lots of real butter.
My stripper daughter and I are keeping a secret, I might buy a mid-century modern house designed my the famous architect, Ron L. Molen. The house is similar to Eichler or Mackey homes, a very hot item in California. I was raised in a Mackey home, better built than a Eichler. I went house hunting, a short sale, the bank owns the house. I need to get my girls away from the loser x-husband. When both girls moved into his house there were piles and piles of cat poo, it smelled like a kitty litter box -- ewe! He doesn't wash his toilet E ---- VER. Oh fuck. He needs women to take care of him, but hates them. He's a misogynist or GAY. He talks gay, I think he's gay. When I see him at our family get togethers, it brings up terrible pain inside. I see clearly, I was the doer and leader the whole time when married in the Mormon Church to him. I've given Utah a new name, I call Utah, Cali-tah. The mid century house by Ron L. Molen has erased my brain's pain to gain!

This weekend in Utah with family

2011-11-18T06:30:00.000-08:00

HAPPY THNAKSGIVING EVERYONE

I'm leaving for Utah this morning, back on Sunday night. I'll be with family for Turkey Day this weekend. My ER Docotor son is cooking a huge meal this weekend. He'll be on call on the big day. Will see my stripper daughter -- Utah watch out, Zoe Zane is in town!

HA HA HA

Doing my cam show this morning, then a fetish friend -- zoom zoom away .... off to the airport in my car. I've been a working fool this year like many of you. I need this short vacation. It will be so much fun to see the grand kids. We have a blast with each other.

My new friend Gina

2011-11-16T09:03:00.000-08:00

I've received repeated calls from a 31 year old the past few days. His fantasy, to be with two older women on New Years Eve. He directed my attention to Gina on "Lovings". At one time she had a big adult web site. Gina tried to retire but it failed. The men who knew her keep calling Gina to see her again and again. So that given, I called her. Well, I was very surprised. She and I will be working together when Gina is in town. How old is Gina? She is 71 years old. Right now, she is the oldest - - - - - - - - I know. Do a search, mature real woman Gina lovings. She might get upset at me for posting, I think Gina is the bomb. I know men: you will call her, try to get off, do something stupid. Please don't do that to Gina. Call her IF you are serious. Don't waste Gina's time -- PLEASE! I know you will not be able to control yourself. You will call Gina.

Zoe Zane

The B Man who cried dishonest

2011-11-14T08:34:00.000-08:00

He wants to see me again, his third appointment, okay. If it doesn't happen the third time, he is are gone. I caught him at his time wasting, dishonest game yesterday. Please don't play games with me. If I taste, feel, smell game -- you're out. You will not be able to talk to me every again. Only way back into my good grace, send the anniversary to my business office, the full amount.
His reason for not calling me at the right time, "I was
w a t c h i n g the 49ers game. He was low key, casual, it didn't matter, he was late. I don't care tones in his voice. I told him you will not come see me. He said he would. Then I laid it on, this is the third time you've done this. You're dishonest. Are you pissed off about your life and the women who flake on you? So lets take it out on Zoe Zane. Pissed off cry baby! I'll dump my shit on the whore field. Why not. Everyone else is dishonest, I'll be dishonest too. He hung up. He knew he was caught at his dishonest, cry baby game. Boo Hoo my life sucks, I want to see you in nylons. B Boy gets the Fat Liar Award for the week on www.zoezane.com

Character for the book

2011-11-13T07:57:00.000-08:00

She's the Kashmir Mob Princess, edgy sadist for many men. They would come over for their extreme kink time with KMP --- one guy had fake bullets ... LOL
She's real, a close friend. I hang out with some interesting people. It's part of my life. I get involved with them, they trust me.

Hi Buttercup, who is a sneaky library freak. Make sure you stay smart, or I will smart your bottom with the tree switches. Prance and dance a jig for me bad boy <<<@#$%^&!<<<<(**&^.... laughing out loud at you!

As for the guy who said people aren't honest anymore, he cancelled on Friday afternoon. That is 2 times. Do it one more time and you're dishonet B Boy. He has one more chance, that's today at 3PM. If he cancels again he's not a honest man. Let you know what he is. Right now, he's on the time wasters list. Next list, the black list for the complaining man who said the world is dishonest. Show your feathers B Boy.

Free gift

2011-11-10T08:55:00.000-08:00

I read this book written by the Mayflower Madam. Many of my old friends will see that I'm stepping up my service like Estee Lauder. At the end, they will receive a tiny present from me. New friends will get one too. It's my new VIP treatment for being so kind and generous. I want to thank all of them for assisting me in my life's journey for erotica.

Geek Sunday and tiny stuff

2011-11-07T16:48:00.001-08:00

I thought my head was going to fall off by 3PM. With assistance from stripper daughter, I uploaded my iPhone to my new iTunes account. De-authorise, then authorise this and that, to this computer and that computer. Make sure everthang is in Sync. All it takes is one botton, still doesn't work. WA La..... its working! Yippee! I deleted all the iTunes on the PC, more hard drive space. In the afternoon, I wrote a nice little story for Buttercup, my slave of 15 years. It's called Diva and Buttercup. The link is on this blog in the web site category (down to right). Later that night, Jaeleen Bennis, creator of Bondassage helped me burn music to CD. Burning music is time consuming.

I have a flushing toilet. YES! For over 2 weeks my toilet was not working. The cheap landlord came out to save money but it still didn't work right. The plumber just left, he was shaking his head over the cheap landlord.

The cleaning of my teeth went well. I chipped a tooth, will need a tiny repair in the morning at 8PM. Better to fix a tiny part instead of a capped tooth. My teeth are 64. I love my teeth, taking care of them is very detailed.

Off to yoga to kick my ass. I want potatoes and cheese for dinner. My cats are doing yoga right now. Too funny.

Come on baby lie to me, I like it

2011-11-06T11:47:00.000-08:00

This message is not to Buttercup, I know he likes me. Laughing back, his grining face for his Diva. I will post a story soon on my message board www.stardomtheatre.com. I know it's more work, Buttercup. The story will be placed on my fetish/domination site.

Now for the sidewalk surfer who lied that he liked me. Yes, I know many are adjusting to this damn mess from the rich. Many of us are still feeling the pain. If you did steal from the many, this message is not for you. I'm sure the rich have run off, are hiding on a island or plastic surgery. It will not work

Mr. Surfer found me in a chat room with his video. He cried about how the dating sites suck. Now, I see why they suck for him. He lies. I saw something of interest, I'm fucked, time to set his pants on fire. FUB. He jerked off over email, every kind word, I hope he jerked it raw. I'll call him the Net Jerk. I love the way you lie, I love the way you hurt. Zoe, I want to do live cam with you, a date with you. NOT, now, Zoe, as planned, oh.....someone is bleeding to death, I must check on them. Zoe, now, I can see you, it's past your bed time, you're sleeping. I'm a jerk to even call this late. He wanted fast in my pants like fast food. LOL. I hope he finds this blog and reads he's been caught. If he's a real man he will send me the anniversary to my mailbox, say I'm sorry in a nice note. If he's the liar, I think he is, he will not do anything. He lied sticky, candy words, made up all the rules, showed me no respect with his actions. I spent time in many emails making sure he would make it to the cam. He did not do the guest model release and proper ID right. He will not be on my cam show.

Today, I will see the Boiler Man who told me on the phone no one is honest anymore. I am honest! My honesty has got me in trouble all my life. Let's see if he keeps the date and a honest man. I will let you know tomorrow.

Today my systems administrator help me move content from PC to my Mac. We did it.

Falling down

2011-11-05T10:16:00.000-07:00

Several weeks ago I hit my right pinky toe. I thought it was broken. It was a severe sprang, threw off my right leg up to my hip. Something so tiny can mess up the whole system. LOL. It's on the mend today. When I did the double with the Miss Hostile it was hurting really bad. No one knew at the party, and I was taking care of both of them. My yogi friends have been most attentive helping me get through the ordeal. Yesterday, I got a email from owner of my yoga studio about the Halloween costume contest. I didn't do much, I was so Halloweened out (picture attached of my silly lite up bing bond orange pumkin head band). Well......I won the contest. The universe was telling me to keep going and not get discouraged about a painful pinky. I was so exited, happy I won. In class, I cried how the Universe was saying yes to me.

There's a alot of stuff swirling around me again. Last night my handicapped/retarded looking sister (it's her undercover skin suit, she is very smart - people think she's stupid) and I talked about the nextdoor dirty old fart man who has the hots for me. We came up with ideas to turn him off. I'm going to wear a beard, see what he does. Dress like a Hillbilly, wear blue hair, etc etc etc. My sister and I were laughing our heads off to the stupid fuck nextdoor. At first, I thought he was okay but then he parked millions of used cars in the back parking lot. He thinks he like me, but he's selfish. He keeps looking out his kitchen window at me. I'm pleasant, smile, will not give him much, the dumb ass. I will post short videos on youtube "how to ward of old farts". It will be funny, way funny, smiling. I can hardly wait to see what happens.

My slave WHIP got spanked again

2011-11-02T10:09:00.001-07:00

It's great. If I get ticked off, I call him up, beat his ass, pinch his nipples. He loves me. Busy with images and video on Net yesterday. I started a new forum for the older woman. Will post the link soon. In my yahoo group, I am posting my private stock lessons. Right now, I am talking to TACO. He put me on hold. You never put me on hold. I will tell him, the dumb ass!

Happy Halloween Everyone

2011-10-31T18:57:00.000-07:00

Tonight, I zoomed to my Bikram yoga class at the last minute. I placed a silly happy pumpkin headband over my scarf. The other cute Kitty friend is my yoga teacher Patrica. We were the only ones dressed up for class. It made me laugh at myself when I looked in the mirror. The orange pumpkin heads were springing every which way. I bonged into the orange cosmos with a big smile in each poses. When shit hits the fan, you smile through it. It works. The shit you face, it's not yours.
Happy Halloween -- I just put on my black PVC latex bodysuit. I know I will scare someone. I looks very creepy.

Zoe Zane

Updates and writing.......

2011-10-28T09:08:00.000-07:00

extremely time consuming, Halloween creeping upon us ..... and the men I know. Saturday night, I was invited to a party with my neighbors. Finally, a connection, but last night Buttercup asked me out to a fancy dinner. I love to be wined and dined by my favorite houseboy. Most houseboys are worthless, time wasters. I'm exhausted when they leave. Most try to get something for free, haven't got a clue what it means to serve and worship. I'm the baby sister, sucky sucky. Buttercup had a great Mom, she trained him well(if his toilet is clean, he has a chance and no butt stains on his underwear). His Mom is still alive, has mentored me on many levels. She doesn't know of me, if she did she MUST be #1 in Buttercup's world. She's a control freak, I'll stay clear. Maybe when she is on her death bed, I will arrive and thank her. She'll wonder, who in hell was that women.
Buttercup honored me with these glorious words about my Goddesshood. Many will try to copy and imitate, they will try to be who you are. But you're energy is total Goddess(it has taken me years to come to this place of my own recognition. I see, I'm the Goddess of Absolutely Everything! Laughing. More laughing, a big huge smile on my face.)

My fetish slave over 15 years, his job finally transferred him away from his sexy Nurse. So far away, he can't find time to talk to her on the phone. He needs a safe place at noon time. He has little time for himself with new his job. He doesn't travel right now. His family is feuding, I will not see him in December. He called me this morning wishing we could session together. He found someone else, but it's not the same. It hit me what I did to him. It's my energy, no one can replace who you are. I taunted him about my white cotton panties and PVC nurse uniform. He has a huge enema fetish, all the way to 4 quart, red/white enema bags. I directed his mind to find a safe place for his conference call with his private Nurse. He will find a way, I know. He had dreams lasts night, all the sessions we did together. Yes, men who see providers have relationships with these special women. Hi there, come over, get your oil changed. It's a pit stop relationship, she repairs all his flat tires, up and running, ready to face the road again.
Zoom zoom zoom away, back another day, soon.

The Kay Parker Fantasy

2011-10-25T09:18:00.000-07:00

It is hard to find the right woman to do the fantasy. Some will not touch it. It's too taboo, makes them feel weird. I get this Kay Parker fan emailing to do the fantasy, but doesn't think I have value. He ruffled my feathers, so I bumped up the anniversary. He saw I was ruffled and was sorry. He's not sorry asking if I knew if another older woman does the fantasy. I'll not tell him what I know. I'll not give him the time of day. I'll not waste by time on a time waster.

I've not seen the OB for sometime, it been quiet. Today, I went over to the my body shop, it's right across from his work. OF! The damn man bitch is still in town with his alcoholic whore wife. Everyone in town knows what a - - - - - she is. Both are losers, need major repair. I bet he went religious with the Mormon Church. Oh, they would take him, in a heart beat. Now to reform the sick bastard. There's no reform for them, but let the Church use all their big egos. The OB doesn't want to change. When his five years is up he will spit, leave the country, do his dirty work again. Evil is always evil.

Zombie School Teacher

2011-10-23T10:41:00.000-07:00

My studio is a big mess, I smoked an awful tasting cig for cam show. The smoke looks great, my breath is not. eek! Today, a male friend will help me take Zombie/Halloween pics for sites. I love Halloween. Today, I let him be my house boy for a few hours. He was most helpful.

The college professor stalker is back, he thinks he's wants to marry me. LOL. After all he has not done, I told him he must take me to my favorite restaurant. Pay top $$$$$ and order what I want for a week. Dinner, it has not happened in the past. I'll say what I want, whatever. I don't care what he thinks. He's such a idiot, I hope he reads this blog. He'll cry like a big baby, tell me -- why are you so mean to me? Duh. Buddy, you're not a man of your word, not the man of my dreams and look weird. I saw his picture on the Net. My brain chip for financial domination clicked on. Yes, I'm a money hungry, arrogant bitch, I hope you go away.

Am I lazy, afraid of hard work - lazy maybe, work NO!

2011-10-21T09:38:00.000-07:00

I chatted with another writer today. I have a few writers in my sex circus, oops, circle. Did I cheat on one writer, talking to another writer? Yes. I can see why Sharon Stone (Basic Instinct) killed people. If she didn't like what they said she nuked them. My fun bone is out.

Peanut Jr. is running around with a huge, furry cat tail. I like it when he does that. Something spooked him, made him hypo. You go, Peanut Jr.

Tic-tock, tic-tock, I'm ticked off:
Honestly, as a sex writer, my sense of humor will rule. Humor saves the day when life gets crappy. Am I lazy, yes. Am I spoiled, yes. Am I lucky, yes. If someone ticks me off, I call up "Whip" and beat his ass. Who am I mad at? Hum. There are a few right now. As for Buttercup, who makes sure to get me mad, I'll pinch his ass in the wrong place. Make him show me where to pinch it right. Poo Poo Poo -- Give him a huge enema, watch him lose control. Put him in his place for being obstreperous (someone who stubbornly resists control). Hello Buttercup, you have fought it all your life, so keep fighting. Big smiles from ear to ear, laughing. Am I a cry baby, yes! Never, I shouldn't say never, has writing been so arduous for my quick mind. It was worse giving birth to a deformed child, no fun. I need Jessica Lang (American Horror Story) to bake some chocolate cupcakes. She's so evil. Am I kind, yes. I'll use Ex Lax in my batter (the brand is an expert in gentle, dependable overnight relief. We are so confident that you will be satisfied)-- OR -- X Lax (the stuff that makes you crap almost instantly, give it to your boss in his coffee). Did a Google search, are there different strengths for Ex Lax? Batter for the runs, yes..... watch you prance like a squeeling piggy to the butt bowl. Is this passive aggressive, yes it is. If I'm giving you ideas on how to get back, wait till you read "give it back" in my smart-ass bitch book. It's okay to think about it. Some of my subbies, want me to give it back to them. Okay baby, come and get it.

I'm done torturing myself self this morning, writing about different writers with different styles. Bye bye, outside with my 3 male cats and a hot cup of tea.

P.S. I like the timer with Ex Lax on it. I can time how fast it takes Buttercup to run to the bowl. HA HA HA

Now I know why I'm avoiding the book

2011-10-20T13:04:00.000-07:00

I'm not a English major (writer), terrible speller, I missed spelling in the second grade. That school year was blocked out of my mind. I don't remember that year. Today, my editor told me the truth about my writing. He's a top professional writer, very conservative. I was under the gun with another person this week on my typos. eek! Breathe, do the work, let them tear it apart. I'll turn into another person, nothing new in my world, take the heat. If it gets hooking stressful, I'll take it out on slave "Whip". The book must be written for the unheard.

Actually, I've improved my writing and spelling. I've put a lot of effort into my blogs. But, it's not good enough. OFM! I'm used to not being good enough. I was constantly criticized by my parents. Okay. I'll be wrong, I stand corrected. Bring it on. I misspell words to make a certain point. Conservative and creative don't mix.

This morning, I found a bowl of cat food for the feral cats. I called Officer Angie (animal control), she told me to keep my eyes open. I know it's the crazy woman who turned in.

I've wrote about a freaky whore, who doesn't know how freaky she is. The drunk, angry whore doesn't remember what happened the night before. I'm off the hook. Whew.

Today there is dissension about my writing:
dis·sen·sion /dɪˈsɛnʃən/ Show Spelled[dih-sen-shuhn] Show IPAnoun 1.strong disagreement; a contention or quarrel; discord.
2.difference in sentiment or opinion; disagreement.

My horoscope said this today:
Your creative powers are well-known, but today brings a new kind of playfulness -- and also seriousness -- to your work. It's a good time to fight for your creative vision. There will be dissension.

Nap time - Click here my Bondassage page

2011-10-17T15:00:00.001-07:00

after a marathon on Friday night with the fetish phreak, Mr. Tongue Man, off to BONDASSAGE on Sat & Sun (Santa Cruz). Must get organized for BONDASSAGE, lots to do. I made my goal for today. Along with putting wardrobe back in all the right places, I found the head rest for my massage table. I can take a 20 min nap right now! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz snoring away
bye bye world for relaxation, I deserve. Last night, I celebrated my passage through BONDASSAGE training. I was born into terror by a Mom and Dad. During my training, I was insanely nervous to be corrected, but I did it with the creator, who is very kind, Jaeleen Bennis. We are one. Thank you for being so kind Miss Jaeleen Bennis. My 3 cats missed me so much, they were all over their Mommie last night.

We're NOT getting off that easy

2011-10-14T10:53:00.000-07:00

world. Prediction, the world will end next year on Alexa, today. I need to become a psycho religious leader preaching the end of the world, a certain date next year. I will call my church "The Church of Peaceful Rest". LAUGHING! Then, I'll donate my millions to the underworld. Laughing more out loud. That's easier than being a real whore. HA HA HA!
At the end of my live cam show, I set my feather halo on fire. SO awesome. I'm a pyro phreakum cougar on the prowl 4 wild HOT sex. I got off 3 times in my woren panty girdle. Girdles are the best for masturbation in nylons and garters - psycho school teacher get ready for Halloween. Live Cam Show Friday Oct 14Th, 2011
You might not hear from me until Sunday morning. I'll be on a erotic 2 day vacation for BONDASSAGE on Sat & Sun - training to be a practitioner! I'm so excited about this adventure with Miss Jaeleen Bennis/Bondassage.

All my great friends

2011-10-13T14:19:00.000-07:00

are taking care of their Miss Zoe. Oh shit, I forgot the switches this morning. They were so beautiful, a subbie cut for me. DAMN! We talked about Miss Jaeleen and I know she likes fresh cut tree branches for switching.
I will post the update for zoezane.com early, today. Over the weekend, I'll be with Miss Jaeleen in practitioner training for BONDASSGE. She and I hit it off a few weeks ago. One of these days BONDASSAGE will be a vacation resort for couples seeking soft play erotic, ecstatic encounters. I might own the hotel along with Miss Jaeleen. I'm looking for retirement investments. Maybe she will go public and I'll get the first stock options. All things are possible when it comes to erotic sex.

My 3 cats are doing great. Peanut Jr. was flinging himself off the bedroom walls this morning. I need to get some kitty food. Back to my hot pink closet to sleep more. Peanut Jr. is not a head banger. Laughing.

I watched the American Horror Show. It was way out there for gore. I closed my eyes when that happened. The pregnant wife was a hero for her daughter warding off a male killer. She got the fuck real good, kicked his ass. I like her. She shows women not to be a victim and trash male attackers.

Not much crazy right now. Yesterday, I finally found the right head shrink for what happened to me as a small child. She understood my terror, I've harbored in my body(some of sex worker friends thought it was no big deal they were molested. That certain worker is wrong). I have protection, my adult self and the BIG ASS Angel that looks after the tiny little girl. No one will mess with me now! It will be in my book what happened and why I am writing for the voice of sex workers.

For Halloween, I've decided to be "zombie red riding hood". I can be a phreakum ghoul and lose body parts. I LOVE IT! Great balance since my sex is on 100%.

I think

2011-10-11T07:26:00.000-07:00

that following what others want for you is a the dumbest thing you can do for yourself. My cat Peanut Jr. makes sure he gets what he wants. He is relentless, will not stop till he gets it. Watch Peanut Jr. When you live your life for others, it's not your life. Other people think they know what's right for you, WRONG! They live in you. eek! When I rescued my three male cats, their my boys, I was called..... crazy. Why so many cats in one house. My accuser was the German bitch that sold me out to Animal Control. She had hate. Many don't have the balls to be themselves, to live their dream. They don't dream, imposing their rules on others. Their sadness becomes your sadness. Go after what you want, be bold, be courageous. It's a crap life being someone else. Rebel, stand up to those THAT THINK they know what's best for you. They don't. Other people tell us what to do, don't know how to live. My 20 pound-er, Buddy, he knows how to live. He loves to eat and love. When he wants your love he's right in your arms, dramatically throwing his head back for a big, fat kiss. Kiss a cat, disgusting. Why not, he loves kisses. My Dad was a small man with small balls that bullied all his children. They live in you, unhappy in you. If you live for others you wear their small balls. Those balls aren't your balls. Put on your big set of balls, turn up your music, look in your mirror, strut yourself, be your best friend. Go for it. Get up, ball yourself to greatness. Most, live half on, too afraid. I watched Steve Jobs talk to Stanford students in a graduation speech. Watch my app be on the iPhone next year. When my cats go outside, it's hip hip hooray to be in the sun, the rain, the wind. Dare, be driven, have a big dream, do it. Don't give a crow's ass what others think. Don't care if others hate you. The haters hate their lives and hate you. Stay clear of haters who live to take you out. Haters, hate the greatness in you. Be unique, be different, do the impossible, dream. Let the haters laugh at you, let them be a copy cat. Wear you big set of balls and scream dream. First step, believe you can have your dream. This must be a peep talk to myself. It is.

My Apple

2011-10-09T14:08:00.000-07:00

It took me a long time to get to Apple. After reading all the crap around Steve Jobs, his leadership, I still love Apple (quality, no hackers). Yes, I know China doesn't care about those who slave away for the excellence of Apple products. Last night, one of my slaves expressed his hate for Jobs, will not buy any of Apple's products, not ever. He think Steve Jobs is a Mauder-facker! Okay, that's cool, Mr. LLBs - Laughing.

Read about the Manhattan Madam, how she'll not stop until prostitution is legalized. I heard in San Francisco it was close to legal last year. Better get a tax attorney sex workers. I don't know when it will happen, I'm not on a crusade to make it legal. I'm the voice for the underworld. I made another corporate decision last night in Palo Alto at fine French restaurant. I have a new Chief Editor for my fictious book. He's brilliant, very smart, known him for years. I also have a software analyst working for me, self driven and motivated. My web manager and I decided what I will do when the book goes public. When it comes to sex and prositution, I need to protect myself from the wolves. It means wolves in the my underground world. I won't be surprised, IF they try to sue me.

The lies men tell you to get the sex they want. Over the years, I've developed a keen sense for the lie. I have placed certain rules, conditions to get close to me. It gets so freakin' old how men lie to get what they want. Whatever, shake my head, a certian foreigner tells me to call him, he thinks he's hot, I think he's a sleeze. For a long time, I was patient, then lashed out. It does not pay to lash. Now I listen, tell them how they make me feel, most men will say sorry. Like, I believe their sorry words. I like it when my phone shows me they called earlier that month. I tell them, how they called me before, they still lie. They even call again in an hour just to see if I remember. I call them, serial sex phone liars. It cost little to lie 4 free. I'm so uninterested how they use the phone for free jack off time. I can tell when they're jacking off. I hear it in their voice. Men who use their best sexy voice on the phone, are jacking off.

A new feature to contact me, I started texting only for those who need a build up.
I'm a fantasy role play expert. I will help you belive that your fantasy can be real, you can taste, feel, smell your fantasy. Our fantasies keep use alive.
Mature Zoe Zane

Whats the truth

2011-10-07T08:43:00.001-07:00

you never know unless it comes from the i-ponies mouth (HA HA HA). Truth, might be tainted, not real. Sometimes I tell people what they want to hear it makes them happy.

I'm so APPLE in 2011. I've had a iPhone for 2 years, never used it. I was too swarmed with porn updates, working and overcoming the bitch OB. The OB was the one for a long time, he was the important one. I was the working machine that funded the white trash pimp of spend. I'm so happy he died out of my life, SO ....Miss Zoe can be the Goddess she was meant to be. When shit hits shit, you crawl through it up to the light of day (I had to change my nero pathways/dendrites). I talk about this BC some never make it out of the shit hole.

I've been following Steve Jobs, his death, Apple and comments by his co-founder iWoz (Steve Wozniak). iWoz was shy, Steve was bold. They sat in their garage and slammed out bi-code for days drinking coffee and pizza. D A M N. I'm not that geekie.

As for writing about the underworld of whores, I had to dump one of my whore friends so I could write the book. She was so insanely jealous, she threw her poisonous words like spitting green goo in your face. The green goo was filled with negative hate.

I made a corporate decision to not give my precious knowledge away. If you want what I have, you must pay for it. My head shrink told me to NOT give it away anymore. The whore I dumped was ungrateful with my gifts. She did not see how great they were. If she calls me up, I'll politely inform her my time spent on the phone must be paid for, she must pay for valuable knowledge. I hope she reads this blog and gets the message. Just a clue on what I had to do to get out of the shit. I had to involve myself in high impact, high frequency support.

I'm not the first corporate whore on this panet. Do you feel like a corporate whore? Laughing.

American Horror Story on CableTV

2011-10-06T09:53:00.001-07:00

It's a scary show, will watch the entire series. The head shrink hubby cheated on his wife after they lost their baby. Their relationship is strained, wife makes him feel bad over and over with her rejection. They fight it out to lust and sex. In the sex scenes she see the black rubber latex man on top of her. K I N K Y!!! Jessica Lang is so perfect for this show, so wicked. Her down syndrome daughter has no boundaries. The strained married couple have a angry daughter who hanging out with the psycho male patient her head shrink Dad is treating. I love it. Freak us all out! Total scare, and something I would write for a book. Out there, edgy and keeps you on the edgy of you warm blankie. Boo Boo Boo 4 Halloween

Why no boyfriend 4 Miss Zoe

2011-10-05T18:06:00.000-07:00

It has taken many many many days to get over the OB. I'm seeing the light of day in 2011. I'm a girl with a big heart, non-judgemental. When I'm in a relationship, I want it to work. I'm faithful to make it work at all cost. He liked me being a porn star and cheating on him. He liked to cheat. He did it alot. I'm tolerant, we had an open relationship. But, I never felt he was committed. He was committed to what he wanted, not to us. I never wanted to see the truth. Love is blind. All my comments above are just a sample of what will be revealed in my book. I will tell why it took so long to get over him. Now that I'm getting stronger and wiser, I have different rules and want different things in a relationship. Right now, I have a few circle me, I wasn't aware of, like the garbage man who ran into at Starbucks. He told me I was beautiful by the straws and napkins. I thought it was weird felling so boxed by a stranger until he revealed how he watched me from his truck. LOL. He watched me when he was dumping the dumpster, not very romantic. There's another, I have know for over 14 years, I rocked his world, his fantasy world. He lives a life assisting many who suffer. When he thinks of me, it's a fantasy where I take him out of his suffering world. He thinks he has fallen in love with me. I'm his fantasy for love, his fantasy as his wife or girlfriend. I'm just his fantasy, that's all. I talked with my shrink about it, know I know what to do.

Be a honest whore

2011-10-03T14:49:00.000-07:00

Some men need to hear it from a whore how great they are. In this world, it's full of downers. He liked blond Cougars who speak the truth. A whore can speak the truth. I said it. He was beautiful, black and very very tall. Not all black men sleep with everything in sight. Some are shy, need to hear how great they are. Be honest, whore, some ears need to hear the damn truth about themselves. Truth spoken, it made his day. His ears have heard too many times, how he's too black, black. He saw I wanted to do more on him. Your actions do not lie.

Saturday morning after cam show

2011-10-01T10:35:00.000-07:00

I had a stud boy show up for my show. All I wanted was to get laid. When I was done, I sent him out the door. Bad Teacher. I gave him a kiss and said good-bye. I have penis for a brain. In cam show some viewer keep pestering me to stick my heel up my ass. Boring. I used my mouse, clicked him away. Don't you love the Net, what your mouse can do with stupid cam viewers. He had diarrhea of the mouth to abuse me in my own show. I was smiling when I clicked him away. Today for video cam, I was the "wrinkled nylon panty click away teacher". LOL

Damn, I don't want Demi and Ashton to spit. Time will tell what happens with them.
I like both of them.

In yoga last night, I wore something from my lingerie bin to class. It was weird how I looked. I'm feeling the inner strength of my body, my core come to life. I've been doing the hard ass yoga for over 7 years. My body is not doing what I want it to do. I guess I'm not intelligent like my body that knows what to fix, when to fix it. It's been hard this year, more tired, but doing more yoga. You're thinking, how can yoga make you sore and tired? Go to Bikram for a while and find out for yourself. It's hard! You get tanigible results.
Pic is for Southern Charms, I'm the smoking Queen with clevage. I'll boob your face with my heart. HA HA HA

Te videos on Folsom were taken by iPhone. I have to figure out how to convert to windows media play. Be patient.

Up early

2011-09-30T07:49:00.001-07:00

gave the cats a nail trim, it's tuff with Chubs, he hates nail trims. But Mom doesn't like those claws "yea all have", so snip snip. Sorry boys, afterwards, I gave them a full body, hair brushing which made Chubs very happy. Gotta get them to the vet for shots this morning which will be a big carry over 50 pounds to my tiny car. I told all three cats were going to the vet.

I read about Demi Moore and Ashton, maybe a split. Hollywood makes us all crazy one way or another. The "Cougar Town" will still go on even though Demi is getting slammed to be with men her own age. And if she did this and that to be youthful, so what. You go Demi, I love you. As for Ashton K., he's doing the typical male thang, run around and stick it in. He's still a looker in my book. I can't judge. I'm a whore myself ..... laughing --- I do it day in and day out, well some days, I get a break. It's all over the Net what I do. And, my old boyfriend got off on me doing it with other men, but then ran off with another escort. I survived all of it and stronger, took about 4 years to get over him. He needs his balls kicked by my spiked heel for what he did. He might get off on it.

As for my Bikram yoga training, I focus on my breathe when it gets damn hard. I stay still and don't move, hang on till the hard part passes, up again, doing the next pose. I hang on till the end, did it. I was close to the front, the teacher who makes me nervous, she didn't say one word to me. Lucky me, her attitude is back, it gets to me. I made it through the bitch teacher's class. Some teachers will always make you feel nervous edgy. WHEW!

Will work on new update for zoezane.com site. Not sure what it will be at the moment.

Honestly, what really happened on Sunday

2011-09-28T13:36:00.000-07:00

before and after Folsom Street Fair. I found out feeding feral cats is a big no no!!! An older German woman, complex neighbor, got me sucked up into her stupid thinking to feed the wild cats. I had a visit from Officer Angie to stop feeding the wild cats in my Queen of Hearts costume. I covered my boobs, she told me not to worry about my chest. Her son goes to the fair every year. Too funny. I saw the bigger picture, was ordered to stop feeding OR get cited. The squealing, so called friend, lied to Officer Angie, that I was the one feeding the wild cats for over 2 years. I started feeding first of the year, after the squealing bitch was forced to leave her apartment by her neighbors. She lied to get out of trouble from Animal Control. It's clear, she's not my friend. I had a deposit slip with the squealing bitch's address, no phone number. Officer Angie clearly saw who was feeding the wild cats at that address area. You can't fool Animal Control. They know how many female cats are breeding, how many young females cats are ready to breed. LOL. That's a lot of wild cats causing a HUGE public nuisance. Feeding wild cats brings in wild life like coyotes, raccoons, hornets, birds, etc. Rabi's hikes up, endangering domested cats and dogs. I was wrong, doing what I did. I stopped feeding the wild cats, they are gone. WOW. Before the Fair, I cleaned up the cat food in the back, went over to Animal Control to get a trapping cage. That's why I didn't get to SF until 3PM PST. I was wondering IF my daughter and I would make it. Many people at the fair loved the Queen of Hearts costume with added Wonder Woman crown and wrist cuffs.
Leaving the Fair to the parking lot, I went out with alarms screaming. My alarm key pod to my locked car broke, set off the car alarm. We tried to stop the alarm, it keep going and going and going. OFM! Down the street, SF police department, no one cared that my car was screeching. My stripper/hacker daughter saved the day, torn open the key pod, moved the broken chip on the tiny motherboard to the right spot. It set the car right, shut the alarm off, and away we went. WHEW ..... so stressful wondering If we were going back to San Jose. Next day, I went over to the dealership, got new keys and reset the alarm.

feral cats animal control folsom street fair car alarms - Zoe Zane

What a inzane day - Sunday Folsom Street Fair

2011-09-26T08:43:00.000-07:00

Finally, made it, whew, Holy Cow Bar after 4 PM. It was hectic in San Jose, arrived later than planned. SF weather was cool, love it that way. The owner of the Holy Cow Bar let my stripper daughter and myself into the bar for free. He was having a private party charging Folsom freaks 10 bucks to his VIP Party. He recognized who I was was, we're in. The bar is free till a certain time. The fair was jamming when I got there. My daughter saw Miss Andrea Storm in her orange and black witch costume with black umbrella orange trim. I didn't see her, found the parking lot on Harris and 12Th. The bar is right up the block on Folsom. We made it. Whoopee!@#$%^&*()...

My best friend Martini and his hot girlfriend got into the bar on my porn star reputation. Hey, I saved someone some money. Rock on. The freaks in the dark bar were sexy with each other. We headed for the back for some fetish smoking pics for Southern Charms. In the back corner Martini's girlfriend and I did a steamy kissing video. Will be posted off my site this week. Now, up and down the sidewalk for interesting Folsom pictures. I wore my black PVC platforms boots. At the end, changed into flats, my ankles and feet were sooooooooooo sore from walking. I ran into Beverley Fisher and her sweetie. She was dressed in steam punk, looked great. We were surprised to find each other in the middle of 400,000 or more people. Beverley is a friendly gal, I like here. We talked webmaster/geek stuff and other plans.

Pictures of Folsom will be posted on my site up till December. I did something different this year. I asked people if I could take pics with them instead of boldly taking over. I went well, my new approach. I think people were happy to be a Folsom star on such a fun day.

Zoe Zane

Click here Folsom Street Fair 2011 - My stripper daughter is coming into to town

2011-09-24T07:54:00.000-07:00

to take hundreds of pics @ Folsom Street Fair. Last night, our cell phone talk. she told me about her hacker friends that go after bad boys, sent to prison. The bad boys who steal money from financial anything. Good job! She has a geek name, Trojan Tiffany. Today, she and I will decided what I'll wear to Folsom Street Fair. When we're together the Earth spins off to the unknown. I will miss Sexy Miss Lizz, she's the best street performer of all time.

Yesterday I had the best time with a new Bondassage subbie. He's so grateful he found me and blessed me. I love those blessings.

No blessing for you buddy: A manipulating dude, his excuse, I have never done it this way before, tried to get me to do something we didn't agree on. I hate that! Shaking my head over men who stall, lie, cheat a girl like me. He was from a Silicon Valley Company, wore pink, played gold at 32 at some charity. I was glad we were done, he was gone. He wasn't receptive to my high energy, didn't like the big mirrors. He must not like to look at himself. Oh well, he will not come back, he couldn't get me to do what he wanted. He has my blessing, shew shew away, don't come to play, never more.

Just before I drove over to the studio for my cam show @ 8:30 AM PST, I found one of the tiny kittens killed on the sidewalk. I will not tell you want I saw. I can not get it out of my mind. I have a cat killer in my neighborhood. I know who he is. My daughter told me to leave the kitten and call the cops. It's a felony to kill animals. I gotta be smart so the guy who is killing these cats does go after my car.

High on life - kick the cat haters!

2011-09-21T07:44:00.000-07:00

Feeding the tiny baby, cute, feral cats has turned rotten again. A cat hater is stealing my water bowls and eating the cat food? WTF He's fat now, maybe he lost his job. LOL. More spare time to harass me, the asshole. The other day one of the older kittens got nuked and left it's skin suit. I got the feeling 4 feeding, I was thanked by one of God's unwanted creature. To the cat hater, someday you'll be starving, starving, starving, no one will care. I saw you outside all reefed up sneaking around, fat from eating my cat food. I've taken pics of the fat, cat hater. I can hardly wait to film his dumb ass. I'll put it on You Tube with Title "CAT HATER".
I read Paris Hilton was arrested for Vegas cocaine. What a dumb, rich bitch, I still love her. She needs one of my cream pies in her face. Paris, why the drugs girl? She needs to hang out with me and my new sex workers friends. We can show Paris how to get high on kundaline energy. I'm creating my Folsom Street Fair costumes for Sunday. It takes a huge amount of energy for Folsom. Is that why Paris drugs? If I did cocaine, I'd rage up the Empire State Building and blast off into space. My nervous don't like drugs.

I replaced my woren away letter keyboard with another keyboard from storage. Different place, the delete button, will take time to rehab my mind to new delete. LOL

HA HA HA ...... So funny. Right now 20 lbs cat Buddy sat down on a pair of purple glasses, got stuck to his butt. He was swirling around on my desk. Glasses dropped off, Buddy is now waiting for me to let him outside.

Yesterday in San Jose, is was freaking HOT! Hotter than Sac. Might be another HOT day. I can hardly wait till fall drops in. Hurry up fall, I need you.

Click to join my yahoo group - it is free to join

2011-09-18T07:49:00.001-07:00

My number one moderator and I are posting behind the scenes. What has happened with Internet models, I've played with (Yahoo Group). Some models are very close, some not so close. An interesting reading, I promise. Yeah, I know YAHOO is old school and not like Facebook or MySpace or Google Groups. I still have friends in my yahoo group that have been loyal. Thank you! All the main companies are important like: I'll Google your Facebook, if you Twitter my Yahoo. Laughing out loud.
At Folsom Street Fair next Sunday, September 25, 2011, people at the fair are going to get "sexed out" my Miss Zoe. My "geekie" topless stripper daughter is flying in and will take pics of the damage. wooHoooo ---- here we come San Francisco. The fair is way big, like over 400,000 people and can handle my energy. Picture on Folsom Street 2011 posted, left to right, myself, Sexy Miss Lizz and Miss Andrea Storm.

Read blog on Live Journal

2011-09-17T15:58:00.000-07:00

Heading to yoga class and home to my 3 lovely dovie cats. Update for www.zoezane.com is up this afternoon.

I moved into new studio and

2011-09-15T13:45:00.000-07:00

still unpacking, what a mess. I'm organizing the haus today. I found my yellow and silver stripper heels. WooHooooo ... YES! I told one of my foot slaves I was throwing away old shoes. He got hot on the phone, told him to come over and get the old shoes, the silly freak. LOL. Yeah yeah yeah, I know what they like. I threw most of them away, walked outside with the rest, he was out digging in the garbage can. WTF! Oh wow, I found a vintage magazine of porn star Seka! He won't get Seka. He was happy with his bag of old worn shoes. I wish I had it video taped for you tube. Too freaky, fetish funny. Zoe Zane, up to her waste in stuff today.

Miss Boobies thoughts

2011-09-12T17:12:00.000-07:00

An important phone call from support:

I have a new friend that has my back. We had this conversation on my iPhone. Now, I see what's going on and the big picture. I must beware of THEM. I'm still cleaning up haus from their mess. I must get ready for the wave when notes revealed. One thing for sure, I do have control over my own body like never before. I'm my own boss, very powerful. I can work my ass off, not get up for the day, which never happens. But if I wanted, I could. I have the freedom to be me. I'm so blessed. But, some may not like the idea of me having this kind of freedom. THEY want to control what I do. I'm aware.

My Live Journal Blog - Click here, read about Sexy Miss Lizz and me

2011-09-11T08:42:00.000-07:00

I need to relax today, on overload with everything and the Net. Will watch TV/movie. Maybe go to Starbucks and yoga today. It's overcast and windy in San Jose. I love fall time, my favorite time of the year. I'm so glad summer is almost over. Sending my heart thoughts to those who lost loved ones ten years ago on the
horrible day 911. I looked at some of the 911 pictures, all I can say is......OMG. I'm sending love to New York. Zoe Zane

A Whores Thoughts

2011-09-09T16:21:00.000-07:00

What's all this anxiety all about, a learned behavior from my predator Dad. He was uptight with the family making sure no one knew what he did. Mom, she valiumed out, feel off the kitchen chair, was pissed off when he did it again. This painful secret, no one in my family wants to talk about it. I hate it when they shut me off. I'm so sick of their denial. When you don't have "Mom & Dad 4 U", you run like a stray, feral kitten. Today, I saw a tiny black, 5 week old kitten run to his buddy cat friend for safety. He was all alone, no Mommie Cat. The little black kitten curled up to the 6 month old male Tabby. It made me cry how these unwanted animals love and care for each other. I'm chocked, all in my tears. How can these wild cats love each other and humans just keep hurting. What a waste of human emotion the anger and the hate. WTF! When you're molested you feel unsure about so many things, like yourself. I get sick of that feeling too. I want to jump into the next world, shake Mom and Dad, listen to me, I want your love. I must have something to learn from it all. Maybe, this keyboard will be my salvation for exposing the pain that we all suffered. Who am I, the one that tells what happened. I will not hide, cover it up or run from it. IMF
Later, when it's the right time, I'll let you know what "IMF" means. For now, it's in my naughty notes.

Fem Dom her notes to Slave D about his nuts

2011-09-07T13:54:00.000-07:00

David, you got so so so big for the ladies, IF you know what I mean. And your Fem Dom hates David to get like that, like when she gives him a bath or when she tends him on the toidy. She wants them nuts then and their, just to cup those bare little ball in the palms of her hands while you were standing there, and squished them a tiny bit. ouch! You jumped! he he he --- while your Fem Dom scolded you --- he he he --- from close behind. (hahaha - I gotta' laugh just thinkin' 'bout it) she squeezed and said, "Pinch your little balls, buttercup! Tame some of that wonderlust you got, and keep you close by your Fem Dom, where you belong - hahaha! Keep you, too, kinda' permanently outta' any little mischief. What was it that Evie, the old farm girl said? I think it was, pluck and pan fry us a pair of prairie-oysters offa' subbie D's little piggies". Your Fem Dom just loves that, all of that! he he he

I do not get it

2011-09-05T18:02:00.000-07:00

how the guy who wasted my time called again for the third time, no car. I told him he wasted my time, I even insulted him and he keep talking to me. Hiked up the gardenias too. Still wants to see me. Is his brain dead? WTF!

I follow my cats example for yoga - watch your animals

2011-09-05T08:27:00.001-07:00

I had this incredible, off the wall business coach that told me to watch my cats. Animals know how to live, examples for us. Yesterday, I watch the movie "Inside Job". One of my close male "H" friends let me take it for a few days. Last night before yoga class, I was fired up after watching the movie narrated by Matt Damon. It's about what Wall Street/Banks/Investment Companies/Harvard/US Government did to our American economy, our world. It's not over, the Obama administration, the president appointed the same financial advisers who support "no regulation". What's really scary, Harvard is teaching no regulation to new minds. No regulation makes it legal to steal from the common man, steal his life savings, his job and forced some to live in tents in America. The thieves and crooks are still at large. I also heard, the CEO of Starbucks and small business owners are not going to give campaign money until something is changed. Right on, Starbucks. We the people need to take back the power. Remember Eliot Spitzer, former governor of New York, all over the news, he saw prostitutes, public humiliation, he resigned. Mr. Spitzer uncovered what was going on with the "crooks criminal thieves" in New York/Wall Street. I laughed with the crooks when his ass was fried. OFM! "oh fuck me" The working girls on Wall Street banked on the biggest criminal job in history.

My cell phone is a sex addict - HA HA HA

2011-09-03T20:01:00.000-07:00

I love it when some guy calls me up telling me he loves porn stars. Then, he goes on and on about fucking Nina Hartley, Kittty Foxx and some other baby. I told him, Nina would not lie about his dick, he'd know she was not telling the truth. After I said that I heard a crash and the phone dropped off. Was he driving, jacking off in his car on his phone? LOl. I hope not.

Upskirt Teacher - Her girdle slip vintage sheer nylons

2011-09-02T12:42:00.000-07:00

in live cam show Saturday morning 9AM PST. Your teacher loves the tightness of her new girdle slip and silky nylons on her white smooth skin. Check out the picture, I posted of my new girdle slip and tan authentic vintage nylons in orginal box. Very nice indeed.

Some idiot slave called me right now on my cell phone, he was spanking his balls pretending it was his Mistress Teacher. I asked him where he found my ad to call my number. He couldn't tell me. What a idiotic, trying to get a free thrill. I hope he hurt his balls. It serves him right to try to get free from this Diva!

Zoe Zane and Julia School Teacher Girdles - click here you tube video

2011-08-30T09:02:00.000-07:00

I was surfing and found my pink girdle on "you tube" www.ffstockings.com "Julia" my on-line school teacher girlfriend. Sniff the knickers!!! HA HA HA I was looking for 2 older women in suits for the new sex forum where I'm Co-Moderating with MILF Kelly DD. I watched several of the videos and my favorites were the ones with the fun music.

Last 24 hours

2011-08-29T19:37:00.000-07:00

1. You keep lying about seeing me, so I missed him. He showed up, I wasn't there. Maybe next time but call me from the pay phone dude.

2. I'm greek from a rich family in Greece. Like I really believe you have a dime to your name buddy.

3. It has taken this person over 5 hours to get to the corner. All he can say is - I'm not familair with this area, over and over before he gets to my door? No way lost in "no space".

4. I just won $1500 hundread dollars, but some one has to drive me over to see you. WTF!

5. My cell phone is not charged, I don't have my charger, but I'm talking to you on my uncharged cell phone at my office. I say, call from a pay phone. He says, Oh this is too complicated. WTFer. Could you come up with a better lie, please!

I told my baby sister about these freaks, we had a big laugh.

Soft play - something exciting and new - Click to Bondassage

2011-08-28T09:38:00.000-07:00

Miss Jaeleen has the entrepreneur spirit like Apple CEO Steve Jobs (very bold statement Miss Zoe. Yes it is, but you are getting my point). She's been a licenced massage therapist/reiki healer for 20 years. She loves body play, combining massage and light bondage (sexy sensuous fem dom) together with sensory play and head phone music to the individual. What will happen? Since it's a deep form of sensory deprivation one is taken into their body and can experience ecstatic bliss. Some have been brought to tears of joy. She's located in Santa Cruz, California by the sea for progressive (yuppie/high teck) clients and couples. Bondassage is taking light domination main stream. Zoe Zane Zoey Zane aka Fetish Diva Diamond

Part #3 - Slave D pants down and off

2011-08-27T11:03:00.000-07:00

That reminds me ... do you remember when you got out and climbed the roof? When your Fem Dom finally got you down, with Evelyn's help, thank goodness, we took you quick into the house. Right away, we got your little shorts and the little panties shucked down offa' you. HA HA HA! Then, we chose and cut a nice switch, bent you way over, the subbies precious and bare, pluckable, little balls hanging out there, so that we could then just warm them up: sting-swat you sobbin' silly, right on the brazen and fair, little bottom. Them we made you go stand in the corner. Your Fem Dom and Evie loved seeing you stand on display, all sobbing, shattered and still with no pants! Remember? Oh, how you just cried your little heart out, over your out stretched arm, little Tshirt and shoesies, but absolutely and quite indefinitely, no pants on you, in the kitchen corner. Since you were a pretty, big boy, Evie and your Fem Dom looked ever, ever so pretty in your shorts, short summer shorts and tops. Delicious indeed.

This so and so said --- I saw you in Vegas

2011-08-25T15:16:00.000-07:00

2 1/2 months ago. You are the one with the yellow fast car. I love it when guys lie telling me they saw me in Vegas. Then they turn it back on me and ask if this is the right person. I let them fry themselves with their made up story.

Hi Teck Bozo at 64, that I trusted

2011-08-25T07:53:00.000-07:00

for the right address lead me on a wild car chase last night. What was I thinking? Not thinking! He brags he sold his house, wants me to get him cigs - LOL, he will be off for one week on a house selling vacation. He brags he has 10 grand on the table. I wonder if he's high. No way, no go to see the bragging Bozo Man. But he calls back and begs me. Okay. I get in my car, late over one hour. LOL. He still gives me the wrong directions. F I N A L L Y, I make it to Bozos' house. He's never made it with a girl like myself and not good at giving direction. Maybe I need to go GPS? Some people tell me their GPS makes them lazy and they don't know where they are 24/7. OFM! I get there and he's like a big crane falling down all over me. I knew there was a reason I was a Tom Boy growing up. So I could handle hi-teck Bozos like Mr. 64. Come one dude, I'm not gumby. No wonder he's divorced. Actually he was a military Bozo now in hi-Tech. In our final moments he speeds up to heaven like never before. He's voicing it all over the room. Whew! I'm glad he's in BLISS! Now I must get home in the dark. I make it home but locked my keys in my car. I'm waiting for the locksmith to show up.

Wholefoods Parking Lot Rap Song- click here, this is so funny

2011-08-24T07:43:00.000-07:00

I knew, that one day someone would rap about wholefoods. Many of the checkers are home boys with tattoos, the girls are yoga suicide looking chicks and baby boomers. At the Campbell Wholefoods I shop at frequently, they even have granny checkers. Smart marketing idea get the hood, the yoga, the rocker, the Gothic chick and older women working for yeah.

I'm excited. I found a vintage clothing store in San Jose for all the 1950's clothing I need for my upskirt school teacher with real silk nylons. I emailed ffstockings.com Julia about my find. WooHooooo!

Yoga at 4:30PM was living hell. I was on the floor a lot. Forget the advanced students, the world champions and the skinny, young yoga babes. I'm here and I will make it till the end.

Saw a bunch of stud boys. I give them nicknames and make them laugh at the end. One is called Volt, Hawaiian Nut, and LLB - ha ha ha!

It was hot in San Jose yesterday, had the air on. Last night, near midnight, Peanut Jr was "dive bombing on me" again. WTF. Peanut you are a bit late, the earthquake was earlier today on the East coast dude. Damn cat. I had to sleep in the pink close last night with the fan running. I made it through the night. Whew!

Earthquake news: On Monday afternoon, my Sister in Sac said she wanted to bomb the White House. Next day there was a earthquake. Watch out for sister who is frustrated like all of us, over the G O V --- LOL.

Added my 3 male cats to blog title today

2011-08-22T09:41:00.000-07:00

These guys are here to levitate Miss Zoe. I live on top of a building near the Los Gatos mountains. This morning before I woke up all 3 of them were lined up next to me in bed. Chubs was up high, next 20lb Buddy with his massive purrs, and last, the crazy one Peanut Jr right next to my heart. It was the trinity pose. Laughing.

Answer to anger, upset, ruffled in any way

2011-08-22T07:58:00.000-07:00

Last night I finally made it to yoga class. I was ready at 4:30 PM PST but one of my stud boys needed me. Saw the stud boy, went to 6:30 PM PST yoga class. The teacher did a double take on me. He saw me at 4:30 then 6:30. WHAT? It was funny. During class my male teacher said to all of us if we get ruffled up over anything in life: If you get upset, angry or riled up in any way close your eyes, FOCUS on your breath and keep breathing in & out of your nose. It's important to still the mind with your breath. FOCUS on the breath, you will calm down right away. It's the mind that needs to be calm and focused. It's your breath that stills your mind.

Please drive up to get me

2011-08-21T15:29:00.001-07:00

I get this phone call and he tells me he's taking the light rail to my address. He is 30 minutes late already. He has the balls to ask me if I can call a cab for him. I gave him the address and now he wants me to pick him up. LOL. What a cry baby. This person has tried my patience and pushed me over the edge. One of my girlfriend's who was adopted by the mob would give him a different address and go shopping. This person who wants to see me hates women. He is late, didn't write the address right and expects me to pick him up. What would you do if you were in my shoes this Sunday afternoon in San Jose?

Second entry - slave D and his training

2011-08-20T11:33:00.000-07:00

When I was horny at 21 my next door neighbor loved to observe and recount, quite spontaneously and boldly, for me while were driving in the car, or in other places that were natural for close conversations. She was also one to leave her hand boldly upon my upper inner thigh, while I was sitting close beside her, as I did in the car, which was a gesture of her full possession of my body and will.

Ooh, will ya' look at those little balls on you! He's just "a sashay-in' himself out there, him prancing all proud-like, in his cute little T-shirt and no pants on, where all the ladies can see him like that. He's just 'a wig-waggin' in flip-floppin' his little weenie and bitsy little balls, out there, bare 'n brazen to the beat of the band'. His Fem Dom should go find him a little pair of pants to put on him - for mercy sakes - ha ha ha! I love to see horny 21 year olds like that. Males do benefit, I'm sure know, my pet, from what we ladies might call a full, southern exposure - ha ha ha! I sure hope there are no geese around to mistake and peck that tender wee wee for a nice 'n fat-juicy worm - ha ha ha! ..... it smarts a 21 one year old, huh dumpling? Oooooh look at the Fem Dom's subbie, he's lookin' so grumpy and gloomy when he should be laughin' with his Fem Dom. To be continued.....

Zoe Zane Zoey Zane aka Fetish Diva Diamond

My life lately

2011-08-17T09:23:00.000-07:00

Doing Bikram yoga more (5 or more times a week) has kinda backfired on me. I have not been able to sleep. I'm backing off to 4 days a week. My body gets on overload 4 sore. I'll do power walking with small weights. I do have access to a small private gym by my studio.
The fast car shoot is on hold. The guys will be racing for big money in LA. When it's a go, I'll let you all know the Sunday date.
I'm planning on going to Folsom Street Fair in September. I love Folsom!
My cats are are three years old. They are much easier to manage. It was insane when they we kittens. I bang metal cans of cat food together and they come in the house. Yum yum Mommie we want food from our Mommie. Here it is boys. Laughing.
My daughter got into a bad accident in Utah during the winter. The car saved her life. The insurance paid to fix it but other major problems were lurking. She needed my help, he engine died. It's fixed now. She was bankrupt with her car, owning on it. I'm investing in the future. She and I are very close. She is thankful she has a car and her Mom. I am thankful to have a daughter that loves me.

Set their pants on fire - Thx David and his Fem Dom

2011-08-16T08:09:00.000-07:00

for mentoring me on setting unruly men's pants on fire. It's too funny when I think how the hacker banned me from my own message board. Last night I saw a stud boy and we laughed about it. He told me he's been with cougars, a few older women, but I was the best one and so fine. Nice words get your everything stud boy from the financial district.

Story continued, setting hacker's pants on fire:

I'll get one of my sexy girlfriends like Ashley Dobbs, Sexy Miss Lizz or Maven Fae/San Francisco (a younger version of wicked Zoe Zane - ha ha ha ha) to tease the hacker, gets his dick hard, while I light the match under his crotch. I'm known to give it back if you fuck with my life one way or another. After the old boyfriend twisted my life inside out, I went to Vegas. A dweeb by the name of Robert, he gives free tickets to Deauxma and big Larry, her hubby, Robert offered to help me do photos. Little did I know, he was a groupie stalker. I get to his sleazy Vegas hole in the wall rental space and die! WHEW. I was polite and stayed, but didn't sleep at all. A year later, Robert, the loser was at another "Girls of the Internet Party" in Arizona, I went after his pants. One of the Internet porn producers told me he was farting all night long. I chased him down with a lit cig. HA HA HA ....and farted back on him, laughing. I chased him to set his pants on fire. He treated your Miss Zoe with disgusting disrespect at his low life Vegas hole in the wall. Live and learn, right. Whenever Robert sees me, he runs for the hills. All my girlfriends know what a loser he is. He stalks Internet models to feel important. I'll make him feel important and watch Robert jump up and down, as he tries to put out the fire. If you think for one minute this is all made up it's not. If you think I would not light his pants on fire you're wrong. That's why he runs fast for a water hole. Keep running Robert, run fast. Do you think Robert wants to stalk me now, NO!

Well well well - I was banned from my own messageboard

2011-08-15T18:57:00.000-07:00

Today I'm cleaning house on my sites. I just discovered a hacker got into my own message board and banned me. I deleted the board off of zoezane.com just minutes ago. I can set up another one just like that, with a M O R E complicated password. Last night on myredbook message board I told everyone I wanted to lit the hackers pants on fire.

I'm working on new projects that will eventually go mainstream. When I'm done, I will announce what I did. I have been slamming myself too much with Bikram yoga and taking the night off. The cats are doing great. I clipped their nails this morning. Chubs, the mellow one didn't like it at all. Poor kitty. I gave him extra hugs before I left my house this morning. I just did a major overhaul on www.stardomtheatre.com --- my Fem Dom website. I'm doing all my traditional fetish/ femdom sessions. Soon I will add something amazing to my menu list. I have been doing it all along, but will fine tune it with some specialised training in the next month. I'm excited. The women, I'm teaming up with are incredible, higher energy, that I love so much.

Fast cars cars with hot MILF Cougars - click here funny cougar

2011-08-14T10:00:00.000-07:00

Hey Miss Zoe Zane it was a pleasure speaking with you today. I'm really glad I made that call. Your enthusiasm was a pleasant surprise. Really think we could collaborate and make some things happen. Well here is a little back-round about our car club and myself. I'm a founding member of our club, "Savage Habits". Our motto is "Any Time Any Place" we are a street racing car club, we got out and race for cash any time there is another willing club to put up the money. We are a younger crowd ranging from 25-35 we all own new to late model Mustangs, Camaro's, Trans AM's. Most cars in our club are in the upper 600 Horse Power range. My Cobra Mustang is a 700 Horse Power Monster. We thrive to be different. Most other car clubs have older to newer cars and always have the same thing in common, young girls modeling with them. So we figured this would be a great way to throw a curve ball at them and be different. Why not use some super sexy older ladies to pose with our newer, fast cars. And now that's where you come in. We use a Cannon 60D HD camera to shoot all our videos and pics. All pics and vids are 1080 HD quality. They can be seen at SavageHabits.net. Let me know what you think and if your interested. Photos would be used on our website and also flyer's to promote our car cruises and fund raisers from time to time. I will include some links and photos for ya. I'm the coordinator/director of events for the club so I would be the point of contact. You can reach me at my email or by phone. I checked your friend Sexy Miss Lizz site and she is a hottie. You two would be perfect maybe you can forward this to her. Your site was also great by the way. Spent more time than I thought I would LOL. Would love to take you for a ride, and haul some serious ass! Well any way let me know what you would charge or if you wanted to do some soft of trade I'm open to anything. We can work out the other details like location and outfits later. Well, thanks again for your time.

This is a link to my car on the dyno. A dyno is used to measure rear wheel horse power.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xgus-W07F1w&feature=youtube_gdata_player

And this is me, I figure it's always nice to put a face to a voice or email

Thanks and hope to hear from ya soon

Diary of slave 14 years - click here Fetish Diva Diamond

2011-08-12T12:25:00.000-07:00

I started out as a Fem Dom several years ago. The only way a subbie could find me was in the local newspaper. I was Diva Diamond and later added the word fetish. I'm now "Fetish Diva Diamond". When I first interviewed slave "D" he had a knife in his bag. It scarred the crap put of me, I threw him out. Later on he came back, explained, apologized for misbehaving. He has given me permission to write his story about his Diva and what happened to him.

I love women who, like my female neighbor, who laughed when they saw a startled male jump or he was entirely embarrassed from punishment by a woman. I will make her name short, call her "HWL" (humiliation with laughter) for now. HWL really, really liked to see a male kept up on his toes. Though always attentive and caring for him, she was yet very strict and absolutely merciless to her exact authority, as a woman, upon a male. She wanted the male ever-uncertain as to whether or not he might lose all his pants, preferably right in front of ladies. After all, HWL would often coo to admonish me, "Males are always suppose to be nice to ladies or they need some good, little punishment." She wanted males to additionally worry about what might happen to them after "he lost alla his pants!" He might either get a ferociously good, little spanking on his bare bottom, get a nice, little pinch, or fire lit hot, right way in under his 'you-know-where'. He was given some good and quick, little energy . . . . . Hee hee hee HA! When a male fears those kinds of consequences, in HWL's wise judgement, then he gets wonderfully trained and molded to want to be a little gentleman. A good gentleman for all women all the time. HWL was an extremely girly-girl feminine flirt, who combined the wiles and seduction persuasion of a trickster with controlling leadership of a disciplinarian. It was never enough that a male simply behave and mind a woman, he was also teased and taunted frequently, his little dignity totally shattered, if he was to "stay put right in his proper, little place. The ladies and their friends - HA HA HA - they liked to talk, as well as giggle about, all what could happen to a unruly bad little gentleman. To be continued . . . . .

MILF with fast cars - Click here

2011-08-11T08:26:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I got this call from RB about the yellow corvet picture taken in Florida. Sexy Miss Lizz and I flashed our hot bodies around this car. A stud boy from Northern Ca is looking for older women/Cougars to model around fast race cars like Mustangs, etc. I'm excited. Sometimes they race the cars down in San Jose. I watch a video of them racing. That's a lot of car power. I love fast cats and stud boys. I'm sending the email to Sexy Miss Lizz and Kelly DD. They are both hot sexy older women. Different twist, instead of younger chicks, the photos will be hot cougars by fast cars!

Really funny fetish video - click here

2011-08-09T09:16:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qMxX-QOV9tI

I LOVE THIS VIDEO!

http://jessiejofficial.com/index.php

"Jessie J"

I'm a bitch!

2011-08-08T20:38:00.000-07:00

I drove into the war zone @ Cheesecake Factory for a tiny piece of key lime cheesecake. I'm waiting to pull into a parking space for pickup only. This couple in a new BMW drive head on into the path of my car telling me to move out of the way. They were driving the wrong way. Boldly, I held my position and didn't move. They could of turned to the right and gone around to get out. As I pulled into the parking stall they drove past my car. The husband was screaming at the top of his lungs, "You fucking bitch!" That I am. I'm a fucking bitch!